October 9, 201510 yr I'm am so obsessing about having a smoke right now. I've had a really bad day today and just feel like messing it up even more with a smoke. After all this time I'm still addicted. Don't get me wrong, being nicotine free has been awesome , but today I'm really f'd up...
October 9, 201510 yr Hey Rowly. Great to see you. Don't sweat it. Yes, you and me are a puff away from a pack a day. Once you get into the swing of this quitting thing, there is no trigger bigger than an anniversary. Natural that you crave now. You don't really want a smoke, it is just a deeply ingrained reaction. I had it too. Grit your teeth, smile and thank your addiction for this timely reminder that this is a sneaky son of a bitch addiction. You got this Rowly. No problem.
October 9, 201510 yr I'm sorry you are having such a difficult day. That sucks.... Please don't smoke. It won't help, I can promise you that. If you smoke you'll only have regrets in which to add to how badly you are already feeling. What's the point in that? You've come so far!! I can tell you that at more than 3 years out I don't get urges to smoke anymore. Even when really stressed. That will happen for you too if you give it more time and fight through these kinds of cravings/bad days. Please let us know how you are doing. We are here for you!
October 9, 201510 yr Hi Rowley, it is true, we will always be nicotine addicts... That it why we mustn't waiver with our quits. You just have the 1 year itch... Stay strong! You can do this!
October 9, 201510 yr Rowly, please don't give up your beautiful quit! You have struggled so hard! Smoking will not improve one thing about your bad day, except to make you feel worse than you do now. We will always be addicts, but we will not always think of smoking as our go to solution for everything. Looking forward to your big celebration in 13 days!!
October 9, 201510 yr Rowly....don't you dare throw your beautiful quit away... Your having a bad day....it happens....tomorrow will be a brand new day... Smoking is not on the table...no matter what.... You would hate yourself... That nico monster is trying one last effort to suck you in.... Stay closer to the board for a while....we will support you through it...
October 9, 201510 yr It's so hard but we can all do it together, I just made a month smoke free, and this week I've wanted to smoke more then ever but I'm fighting it with my everything, it's unbelievable but two of my closest nonsmoking friends started smoking just when I quit, and say too bad we can't have one together you tortured me to sit out in the cold for years with your cigarettes, I have to say it's not a bonding prop! And why the hell did you start! Truth is, if something has us this by the balls why give in to it so the hold stays strong, we have to keep cutting the lifeline until there are no more left, cause it's sad to be so controlled by a lousy cigarette, I mean through this quit I've cried over these damn things and felt mental. Don't give in!! And have to start the withdrawal all over again, you don't want that... Have a lollipop !!! Stay strong we are all here for you!!
October 9, 201510 yr Rowly....I just bumped Holski's SOS because there is a wealth of information and responses in that thread Hang in there buddy PS> running is very difficult carrying an oxygen tank.
October 9, 201510 yr Please don't smoke! As others said it not only wont help..it will make things worse! You'll have to start all over again with the detoxing and hell week and all that....hope you can stay strong. Keep us posted on how you're doing
October 9, 201510 yr Ah the one year trigger...rowly, I did that. Once upon a time I caved...felt better when I rode it out and went past it let me tell you. Bandit and I agree this point. Just ride it out Rowly, just dumb thoughts! We all have so many dumb thoughts and we don't act on them. It's our inner addict spying an opportunity! Close that addict down...cut off that dude and just keep moving. This foot, that foot. it'll pass! That's the thing of triggers, they always pass even if you just wait them out. You got this man! x
October 10, 201510 yr Rowly, Can't thank you enough for posting this. I am a month short of 1 year and I'm craving hard right now as well! Peeling back more layers. Exhausted. WTF???? Also, over a week ago I had an all-night smoking dream. Look at these late-game attempts by the addiction! Ugh. Crazy stuff.
October 10, 201510 yr Author It's morning here now. I just woke up after dreaming that I was on day one again, not cool! When I woke up it took a while for me to realise that it was just a dream. I'm going for a run now, thank you all for your support I did not smoke. Chat later I hope....
October 10, 201510 yr Sounds like a dream you needed to have. Last week I walked into a vape shop on a whim and spent the whole night dreaming about vaping. I never even vaped in real life, but now I feel like I know how much it would suck. Thanks dreams! Also, good work for the sos, and again for not smoking. I'm deducting a half point for going running, cause now you're just showing off.
October 10, 201510 yr Great news....not smoking.....I carnt run to save my life....so well done..... Take in that lovely fresh air....
October 10, 201510 yr Glad to hear you didn't smoke, I remember having the itch too! For me it felt weird as in when you start your quit you have all these milestones, you get excited about managing a month, then two and three and so on. Once you get to the year it sort of felt a bit flat to me, like what am i suppose to do now the euphoric state just disappears and your quit just stagnates, we forget how bad it was on day one and through those early days, weeks and even months. Look forward to seeing your one year post Rowlyd
October 11, 201510 yr you can do this asking for help proves that so hang in there your almost a year free don't give up now rowlyd rember nope :D
October 11, 201510 yr you can do this asking for help proves that so hang in there your almost a year free don't give up now rowlyd rember nope :D
October 12, 201510 yr Great news! A few more days and you've got that crucial year under your belt! :)
October 15, 201510 yr Author Thanks guys I'm so close to a year wow, I've not been anywhere near a full year smoke free since I started smoking 25 odd years ago.... its scary.
October 15, 201510 yr So close now ....looking forward to celebrating your big day.... Feel,proud rowly....some folks can only dream what you have achieved...
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