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Yes. It finally happened for a few hours today. 6 weeks quit, and each day slightly better, with a few hiccup days occasionally. But, still most of my brain has been caught up with "not smoking." Today I worked in my new office (got a promotion, too, that actually came with some more money--doesn't usually happen that way. lol!) and then went to the gym after work. Either it was just time and/or the new office, where I had never had any smoking triggers occur, but I actually felt at peace as a non smoker. You all said "wait." I didn't think it could happen for me; after all, I smoked a lot, for a very long time. . .
 
I'm going to keep waiting. For more hours, more days, of not killing myself.
 
I'm starting to think that maybe I can do this.
 
Thanks, all of you. I couldn't have done this alone.

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Yes. It finally happened for a few hours today. 6 weeks quit, and each day slightly better, with a few hiccup days occasionally. But, still most of my brain has been caught up with "not smoking." Today I worked in my new office (got a promotion, too, that actually came with some more money--doesn't usually happen that way. lol!) and then went to the gym after work. Either it was just time and/or the new office, where I had never had any smoking triggers occur, but I actually felt at peace as a non smoker. You all said "wait." I didn't think it could happen for me; after all, I smoked a lot, for a very long time. . .

 

I'm going to keep waiting. For more hours, more days, of not killing myself.

 

I'm starting to think that maybe I can do this.

 

Thanks, all of you. I couldn't have done this alone.

So happy for you...and you are paying it forward every day.  Congratulations on your promotion!

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Awesome news Aine!  The first realization of how great not smoking can be is just the best, a huge self confidence boost.  Guess what?  It gets even better than that  :)  Congrats on the promotion!!

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Yes. It finally happened for a few hours today. 6 weeks quit, and each day slightly better, with a few hiccup days occasionally. But, still most of my brain has been caught up with "not smoking." Today I worked in my new office (got a promotion, too, that actually came with some more money--doesn't usually happen that way. lol!) and then went to the gym after work. Either it was just time and/or the new office, where I had never had any smoking triggers occur, but I actually felt at peace as a non smoker. You all said "wait." I didn't think it could happen for me; after all, I smoked a lot, for a very long time. . .

 

I'm going to keep waiting. For more hours, more days, of not killing myself.

 

I'm starting to think that maybe I can do this.

 

Thanks, all of you. I couldn't have done this alone.

 

Freedom is addicting and there's no going back.  As strong as you are, you're a non-smoker forever.

 

Congrats on the promotion too!

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1)Congrats Ms. Promotion. Is Comrade gonna start calling you his sugar momma? :p

2) Feels good, huh? Surreal almost....to go long stretches without thinking of smoking/not smoking. Sometimes now when it does pop into mind, the only word I can find to describe what I feel is apathetic. I just feel nothing about smoking.

I love that :)

I'm glad you're here. I really enjoy your posts.

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I really love this post, Aine!

I loved those times when I'd realize, "Hey, I haven't even thought of a smoke for 'X' amount of time!

What a relief that realization was!!

 

And...congrats on the promotion! That is really cool.

B)

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Aine....it's those moments that I am striving for now. Those minutes where you don't think about smoking, and you don't think about not smoking. I have experienced those in the past. I think that is what nonsmokers call 'life'.

 

I gave up those beautiful moments with just one puff.

 

Now, I am striving to get back to that exact place where you are right now. I know I will get there....it's only time. Time I could be a smoker and never reach that place or time as a nonsmoker and get there in about 6 weeks like you did. I'll never catch your time, but I will catch up to where you are today. You will then be able to tell me all the wonders of being 12 weeks free!

Way to go. You're an inspiration!

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Aine, I guarantee you that the day will come that you will ask yourself "did I really used to smoke or was that some crazy nitemare???"

 

You will find that the longer you're quit, the less the "thought" of wanting a cig will become... until the thoughts just fade away.  You are rockin your quit, good job!

 

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how many times did we p*** you off Aine telling you that it would get better ;) your post makes me so pleased for you hun and congratulations on your promotion you definately are going from strength to strength xx

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how many times did we p*** you off Aine telling you that it would get better ;) your post makes me so pleased for you hun and congratulations on your promotion you definately are going from strength to strength xx

Too many to count! lol!

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My two cents...NO

 

As an ex smoker, I'm thinking you will always romanticize about how great it felt and tasted to smoke. The truth is (as we all know) the opposite.

 

I was standing outside SAMs Club the other day as my Daughter was selling Girl Scout cookies. I watched employee after employee go to the smoking area on break and burn one or two. As I continued to watch my mind would race about how good that looked and how wonderful a cigarette must taste. Towards the end of the day, I walked over to the area (when no smokers were around) and was totally disturbed by the smell. The whole area smelled like a horrible ashtray and I could actually taste it. It brought back all the bad memories and reasons why I wanted to quit in the first place.

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At 7 months or so I was walking around at work and happened to see smokers outside. It hit me like a bolt out of the blue, that I hadn't thought about a cigarette all day, no craves, no thoughts at all. It was mid afternoon,

 

I think I realized that I had finally arrived, that what I wanted to feel, I had just experienced.

 

It was amazing. I remembered that I had read that it would be that way, that I would be surprised.

 

I was really surprised...it will happen  :)

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