darcy

-2 yay Irene!!

yesterday day 9: plank 40 sec squat 24 walk a mile plus today day 10: plank 45 sec squat 24 walk 1.5/mi plus - part with cat - cut short due to eagles Go Sunshine!!

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nope

Raving.... "onward wise elephant dancers!" spots

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-10 ... sure, I want to get the sticks!

Sazerac - 7 me -8

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very tired. feeling thin and quick on the trigger. wish I could sleep during the day. do not want to utilize otc sleep stuff. do not feel like doing anything woke alarmed in the middle of the night. had spoken to my mom (celebrating her birthday) yesterday afternoon and she had a dry cough. WORRIED. she says she feels fine and it was a cough due to not speaking too often these days. managed not to call my mom in the middle of the night with my panic. managed not to wake my marvelous man, either. didn't really get much sound sleep after awakening....stuck in the half dream hazy space. seems to have followed me into the day as I navigate through it... have completed a few food prep and storage chores (rubbed my eyes after chopping serrano chiles, so that woke me up for awhile) have that feeling in my stomach like I have made a grave error. good news....these feelings will change. on the train. is there a sleeping car?

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how does it feel to quit? wish i could grab the EMPOWERED feeling, haven't felt it yet. grateful, yes! accomplished, not yet, still feel too close... fortunate amazed cautiously delighted wary surprised breathe easier HOPEFUL

traveling really adventurously in Newfoundland plant

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NOPE

10 whoo hoo!

went to sleep last night feeling like I would get up today and go get cigarettes. woke with the same feeling. still on the train. almost late afternoon. playing the mind games outsmarting myself.... you know you smoke... yeah, but it's mom's birthday and she is so happy you quit. you can smoke tomorrow.... nope nope nope think again, get right with yourself, call an ally. post an sos Do it!!! sister's life derailing amidst the now normal pandemonium and I am not there to support her. though being in the smoker's zone would be suicide for me and my quit right now. still wish I could hold her and hug her and walk with her while her heart breaks and begins to heal. arrghhh... grateful for ... BEing FREE from nicotine slavery - extra heaping portion of gratitude for Quit Train & the conductors, riders and engineers relationships that are there ... through all the trials, abuses, healing, growth...loving in the ways we know, where we are learning and choices in/of love and light time spent with those dear to my heart ... and the memories of those times humor and lightness of heart healthcare professionals and their willingness to show up and do what needs doing....holding hands, pallitive care, BEing WITH people, and thinking outside the boxes to create something from nothing geese returning, sand hill cranes, too and the spring song of the cardinals ... found my copy of A Sand County Almanac by Aldo Leopold and renewed my joy of this treasure belief that things , people, and beliefs are changeable cognitive, physical and spiritual functioning ... at least I think they're functioning, I could be off on this my marvelous man... steady and true...all I could ever desire...thank you I hope I dance

day 8 35 sec plank 22 squats mile plus brisk walk in the rain!! yay

Wow hh, you just jump right in...vroom! Inspiration for me to do at least 3 reps of the exercises I am doing. lol

grateful to be walking in the rain in the woods. no other human souls in a 100 acre radius. Be BOLD in keeping distance, more than suggested even. Stay safe.