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  1. Just stopped by to learn, connect and share a bit. Best of everything to Boo. May your adventures bring many belly laughs and your love overflow and change the world! Quick acknowledgment of the gratitude for my non smoking life..... LOVING every minute of not arranging life around smoking grandkids coming to stay for a month...won't even have to THINK about what I am role modeling by smoking because I DON'T SMOKE!!! much laughter aloud at that truism....YAY my marvelous man is deeply grateful I am Free! I do not give a single thought to how I might smell when in public (although I am not often in public) I am wheeze free in breathing I choose where to sit and what to do not caring if people an see me or I am polluting their space...because I do not smoke I am more active and sometimes have more energy conscious and aware of cultivating true health and healing....step are taken...2 forward, 1 back and loop around the floor Quit Train and the dedicated people here .... THANK YOU for your giving and continuity....makes a world of change possible my life is truly being lived beyond my wildest dreams in many arenas... thank you, thank you, thank you... I have people coming to stay that are smokers. I've got this. I AM FREE!!
  2. nope...thank you, thank you, thank you....nope
  3. Wow, Jillar... hats off to your accomplishment. Freedom for you no matter the situation. Wise bunny woman and incredible support and advocate for Freedom.. four bunnies, one for each year.
  4. Wonderful you, 4 YEARS of fabulous FREEDOM.
  5. Yay for your 7 years of FREEDOM. cruising along...
  6. Hello Fabulous Quit Train People, It has been awhile since I was here on the boards. The last 3 hours have been a wreck of smokey thoughts and intentions. Grateful I chose to come visit here before grabbing my keys and heading out. Haven't gotten myself off the ledge yet and am certain I will get off it before relapsing. The intensity doesn't surprise me. I know who I am. Sad that I am having the "same old , same old" response to predictably the same old, same old ire raising situations. Yet, again, I know who I am. Or do I? Perhaps this urge is responsive/reactive to the myriad of BIG FEELINGS and stressful circumstances being experienced. Collective experiences of 2020 ...living just outside the Twin Cities... navigating life and loving in "the after times" of Covid-19 presence. Or perhaps, and likely, it is my long standing programming to choose harm to myself when I am "over" (whelmed, hungry, angry, lonely, tied, hot, ashamed, feeling powerless, etc....) Need to hold space for allowing the new. Past behavior is only a predictor until it isn't, ...and something changes. Think I picked up that delightful tidbit here on the train. Came and read several pages of "pre respond to your S.O.S.". Including both of my own posts there. having salad and sharing my ticker stats with my marvelous man. grateful I will make it through this day as a non smoker. I know I am one crappy decision away from a lifetime of continued misery. Keeping gratitude in the forefront..... will get to see my dad in person this Autumn. likely going to marry my marvelous man while my dad visits....bit of a late bloomer on the "traditional social norm" scene...grateful for THAT, too! Got to float through the lake reeds listening to a pair of loons garden is growing and exciting to watch and eat I have nourishing relationships and environments I am a nonsmoker a doe and her to spotted fawns are a daily delight to see I am enjoying kayaking, canoeing and just sitting lakeside listening and watching the gift of health is keeping me living easily My needs are met fully and richly...many wants, too I have over $800 because I do not smoke Quit Train exists and is filled with fabulous support and great information .....so much more to be grateful for , too......... looks like I made it through this addiction dance....
  7. Hey Jo, Glad you're home and surgery was successful. Enjoy the resting up for a few days.
  8. Mending happening.... Glad you are tended to. Love and light.
  9. Hello Fabulous Quit Train People, Have been quite busy with navigating guests in my home who do not share beliefs around covid concerns. Glad to have (sort of, not really...) found a way to be okay with sharing close space and being with the people I hold deeply dear. More urgent smokey thoughts in the last few days than I have experienced in awhile. Just acknowledging the thought, announcing "I don't smoke", and moving on to the next activity. Still surprised when I spend any time thinking about it...that I am a nonsmoker. Still wondering...am I solid enough to change my patterns when the worst storms hit? Deeply enjoying gardening and learning to play pinochle. Made the BEST lemon cookies ever last week. Have been visiting the fledging owls (2) daily for more than a week. So beautiful. Grateful for my health and the health of those I love. Grateful to have resources and abundance of interesting and fulfilling opportunities. Grateful that at this juncture I do not spend much brain power or time on smoking. Hoping you are finding your way joyfully on the train. Reach out, post and share - struggling or easy street. People here will support your quit. You got this. I got this! 38 year smoker....2 months plus smoke free!
  10. nope!...glad we are all here!
  11. acceptance makes easy
  12. darcy

    4 May

    Thought about smoking, in a non-urgent barely considering it a smokey thought, for the first time today about 5 minutes ago. I am amazed, grateful, proud? (ooo, don't say that, not pride....), still hesitant to have faith and LIVING smoke free none the less. Had someone told me 2 months ago that I would have this experience in the next two moths I would have negated their reality with no hesitation. Denied the possibility with every fiber of my self knowing. Hardly ever have I been this grateful to have been potentially wrong. I am a nonsmoker. Feel like there needs to be some shoring up , some preparing for some unknown future where I will want to smoke and will give my power away, again. Really want to keep this quit for the rest of this life. I think about the things I have read on this site. The crave or smokey thought only has the power we give it. ~ this is s tough one for me... NOPE ~ this is an easy one for me. I am an addict. Nicotine is a drug. Lighting up is the choice of addiction and killing myself one breath at a time. Meanwhile, I am enjoying spring. Looking forward to my mom coming back from Arizona and concerned about her traveling. Still need to make a plan for dentist. Been utilizing vitamin I (what we call ibuprofen in our house) way more than I want to...and grateful for the management of pain. Playing around with gardening and painting and exercising....play is good for my brain and spirits. Hoping as things evolve in the next few seasons there will be work for me (I part time teach, but not in permanent position) doing something fun and creative. Hoping if you are reading this you are having a day filled with smiles and wonder. and until the next blog entry....here is a creative choreography gif
  13. darcy

    2 May - Celebrating Freedom

    planning...more like outlining a plan. caffeine is really 2-4 cups, 8oz cups, of coffee in the morning (heavily laden with cream and sugar), so more than I'd like , but many miles from the 6 Monsters a day I drank 10 years ago. You could say I have weaned over a decade...lol. and the sugar... I have been trying t be aware of how much I consume, just so I actually know....seems I randomly binge and have dessert everyday. The dessert thing started 10 years ago....used to be occasional desert, now daily. Currently, I am trying to be excited about my success in ceasing nicotine. My screwed up internal dialogue snidely comments, "so what , you still are weighing in at extremely unhealthy numbers, so why bother with one , if you're not going to fix (choose healthy) for all." My actual self realizes that progress is progress and loving myself as I am IS the HEALTHIEST choice and path I can possibly take. Your continued support and connection is deeply appreciated.
  14. Feeling much lighter of heart and head the last few days. Grateful to be able to ride out the emotional downs without being a slave to nicotine addiction. Yipee! Close call sometimes. For the most part I don't think much about smoking at all. When the urge hits to smoke it is either light and easy to bat away, or all consuming and demanding action. Through whatever grace I am free of nicotine (38 ish years a slave...no more) and trucking on. Not saying there are not other things that need tending and healing, and very grateful for the relative ease of releasing this addiction I no longer need. Enjoying the spring dazzle of greens. Enjoying walks with the cat and seeing, seemingly, right before my eyes the leafing out of the trees. No kidding...we walk our mile loop and the trees we pass on the return appear to have even more leaves. Delightful. Hoping to get a person powered boat on the water this weekend. Pretty windy at the moment. Not sure what to look forward to these days. Staying grateful for: the amazing life I am leading relationships that evolve and remain and nourish and sustain...and ones that seem stuck, so I can have the opportunity to show up with compassion, love and hope me and the things I learn, choose and give my marvelous man...a rare gift from a one of my dearest friends...in weird way laughter and long standing jokes with people who share my bents health of those I hold dear because they thrive in place, me, too BEing Free from nicotine ... coming soon to my body and brain... FREEDOM from sugar and caffine ART - am really loving the Getty Museum stay at home challenge ...just search for images of Getty museum challenge, jut squirreled up that clicking tree for a few minutes and am laughing out loud my phone....it is how I am connected to people I love and their voices...so nice to hear hope because I believe things change and there is ever more wellness and wonderfulness flowing Rolling along....

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