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just sitting here reading and crying. would like to get up and go swim. afraid I'll cave in and get cigarettes, if I leave the house.

Yay for Amy and her office mate!

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Around 42ish hours now smoke free.

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thanks to those who write , so we may read.

Loving to read, read, read. Can't string a thought together....20 hours free. Yay .

For me, I can not entertain that I will ever have this addiction beat. The demon may sleep, but it is still there. Linda, take your shaky confidence forward one breath at a time in freedom. Yay for being on the train.

Yay for you, BAT. Congratulations on your 9 years of freedom.

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i do so enjoy the banter, fodder for thought and general mayhem of the people on this train.

Hello Linda, Hoping your seat is still warm on the train. If not, hop back on. I keep trying, succeeding, then self sabotaging. I was telling myself I didn't have another quit in me. Glad I am willing to try. Hope you are feeling better and enjoying the FREEDOM of Being without smoking.

I am here, on the train. Grateful for people sharing and encouraging me.

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Well said, DenaliBlues. Yay you and your freedom.

Thanks, Jillar. I appreciate your belief that I can.

Hello QT People, I am lurking about wanting to want to quit. Doing it the hard way, so far. Down from a pack a day to half a pack and experiencing the repeated withdrawals. Joel's words ringing in my head.... only two reasons to smoke, paraphrasing here... 1. you want to die a horrible painful death 2. you want to keep experiencing withdrawal and all it's joys I am scared. I am having trouble believing in myself. I am unwilling, thus far. I am afraid to fail, again. I am afraid to commit to nope, to keep smoking, to LIVE. I am giving my power to people who profit from my addiction and life draining away. I am able. I am kind. I am hopeful. I am swimming and doing water aerobics (over 100 miles last year). I am me in all my foibles and big feels. Afraid to BE here before I actually quit. So risking this post for what reason I do not know. Avoiding lighting up right now. Hoping your quits are solid and sticky, your lives are full of robust laughter and deep breaths. Love and Light, Darcy

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woke feeling like a smoker and is stocking with me. more work. more food. more looping thinking. as long as I do not put anything in my mouth and light it on fire....things are great, right? many folks may have noticed I have volumes and volumes of issues..... all of them competing to collapse my hope. I just keep plodding along getting tired of not being able to remain hopeful. whine, whinge, whine....

This line of conversation speaks to my truth as well. I do find that when I am open and try different ideas, things do become easier again. Last year at this time I couldn't tie my own shoes and navigating our 4 flights of stairs was becoming challenging. Today, after semi dedicated efforts to a morning stretch routine, I find I easily bend, reach, turn and BALANCE. Truly grateful to have found something that affords me the belief that ageing gracefully is the way of my life. Additionally, I recently began swimming a mile a day, just because it keeps me sane, busy and is really moving meditation for me. Now I have a goal to swim 54 miles, in 1 mile increments. 43 to go. Hoping everyone finds their ways to age gracefully with all the YAYs of life intact.

Hello QT People, Have been smoke free since Thanksgiving and nicotine free less than 2 hours. Not sure how it is happening, but it is. YAY. The NRT (patches) was not overall helpful for me personally. Yet, here I am not smoking, so who am I to say it didn't work well. I am very very wobbly and feel surprised that I am smoke free. GRATEFUL grateful grateful, yet still surprised. I find that addiction is an interesting and horrible opportunity/experience. I very much admire the people who share here and their different experiences and ideas. I hope to feel as sure and confident and committed to freedom as many people are. Seems so easily obvious to choose the freedom and LIGHTNESS of breathing. Ad yet here we are..... Hope your adventures today bring you closer to living the life of your dreams. nicotine free less than 12 hours

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glad you made it. walking walking walking

detachment. observation. giving and holding of power. intention. desire.truth. when the kindest thing I can do is remove myself and sleep. auto correct tried to insert love myself. but attached me insisted on remove. many great insight and information here.

thanks everyone for the support. I am seated. though at this moment , despite having just left the doctor for covid test and to the pharmacist to treat for bronchitis, I am wrestling with myself not to get a pack. over 48 hours of semi freedom (using patches for a few days) at this juncture. hacking painfully and having this beyond insane loop in my head. sitting tight. so tight I might turn into a diamond. oooo..sparkly....