November 29, 20169 yr I'm angry. No. I'm past angry. I'm in a full blown mother fuc king rage. I keep thinking I need a cigarette to calm down. I don't know what else to do. I don't know if I'm strong enough to do today. I have to calm down and walking isn't cutting it.
November 29, 20169 yr Tiff..you've heard of my punching pillow..I had angry times.. The only way through it ..is to fight..with everything you've got.. Your junkie brain is trying to convince you ..to have a cig and all will be well... Can you imagine how angry you will be ..if you throw away another great quit.. The only way to win ..is to fight..
November 29, 20169 yr I have to calm down and walking isn't cutting it. So run. Run! Sarge guarantees after the first mile-and-a-half you won't be wanting to smoke again for at least 3 or 4 hours. And after that if you still want to smoke, run some more. Keep running until you no longer want to smoke or the anger goes away. Sooner or later both will happen. With or without running. With or without a cigarette. Sooner or later both will happen. You will no longer want to smoke AND the anger goes away. Easy Peasy
November 29, 20169 yr Scream, cry, rant, rave, stand on your head, stay in the shower until there is no hot water, cuddle your animals...anything but smoke! You know damn good and well that the only thing that will accomplish is to awaken the addiction and put you right back to a pack a day. You know this!
November 29, 20169 yr Smoking never fixed a damn thing, we wish! Go beat someone up. Pillow punch but don't smoke cause that don't fix nothing. x
November 29, 20169 yr If a cigarette was the magic elixir that cures anger, we would have been eternally calm and in a constant state of zen when we were smoking. Realistically, we had stress and anger when we smoked and on top of all that were almost constantly in some varying degree of withdrawal. Nicotine leaves the system more quickly during times of stress, so we needed more cigarettes during stressful times. Smoking doesn't alleviate anger, it compounds it.
November 29, 20169 yr Nicotine receptors are in a primitive part of our brains that acts on emotions. Use your rational brain to get control of your situation.
November 30, 20169 yr Hope you are doing better now Tif. It really will get better as long as you don't smoke.
November 30, 20169 yr I hope today is a better day for you Tiffany?! Be proud. You got through yesterday :)
November 30, 20169 yr Hey I'm back girl, chin up. Laugh, cry, scream... My therapist quit smoking 4 weeks ago his comment about it 'I don't like it anymore, fun's away'... and that's a T ;) you rock girl.
November 30, 20169 yr sorry im late tiff . how are you doing. your stronger than you think you can do this . fight for it
December 1, 20169 yr Hi Tiffany . I am new here . Sorry I missed your post yesterday, but as I was reading your post this evening and the messages to you I could see you were being cared for by some real special and caring people . Strength in numbers :) I was glad when I came to your message that you made it through . Hope today you are doing better ? I remember that anger I had . My anger was at cigarettes and I literally went into my bedroom and screamed into a pillow . I was so angry at this addiction. Angry that quitting was hard ; because here I was battling everyday , cryng every day , fighting every day and where was my joy ? .Then Tiffany right after that time , or maybe a few months later, I decided not to fight anymore . Instead I surrendered . Surrendered to my quit . I accepted that it will be what it will be and if I just take one day at a time I will be ok . Just don't smoke I would tell myself . Keep your quit Tiffany ; you have a great quit going there ; work through what needs to be worked through . Look after yourself and be proud . You did good posting and working it through . Great job .
December 3, 20169 yr Author Please let us know what's going on! Hey, It's been a rough couple of days. Tuesday..... that was a day of just pure rage. Wednesday...... still angry. Thursday...... getting better. It's an employee at work. I can deal with alot but some things just are too much. And I have a good rapport with my employees (always have had) but this one female just grates me and I broke on Tuesday. MY boss wouldn't even talk to me (he knows me very well) and knew I was not to be reckoned with for a while. I have hurt my ribs about a month ago and I am sick and tired of this doggone pain. I can't even sleep cause it hurts so bad. And then to top it off, my son blew up his motor in his truck so we had to go shopping for a new one and I was exhausted. I know it sounds stupid but it does help posting on here when I feel like smoking. I had to white knuckle it sometimes. I thought about going to the store and buying a pack.... thought about my favorite glow in the dark ashtray. I thought about just never coming back here and accepting the fact that I will always be a smoker. I didn't feel like holding myself accountable for myself. But I did have a sense of accountability to y'all. So in the end, I just kinda backed off from everyone........ and everything. Slept when I could. And today was MUCH MUCH better !!!! My son has a new truck. I'm not angry at the broad that I have working for me anymore. (although I still don't think I like her) and I got some much needed sleep last night. And I have an appt on Monday for my ribs cause nothing is helping. So in answer to your question.... still smoke free and feeling MUCH MUCH better !!!!
December 3, 20169 yr Author So run. Run! Awesome advice. I am planning on doing just that very very soon.
December 3, 20169 yr Author Sounds like you need laid I would have killed him...... lol Or rocked his world !!! Not sure which.
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