August 30, 20188 yr good days no smoke bad days no smoke daytime no smoke nighttime no smoke yay you.
August 31, 20188 yr Author In order to create a sleep sanctuary in my bedroom, I started by cleaning the windows inside and outside. Put the curtains in the machine, fresh sheets on the bed after cleaning the bed itself, vacuumd and mopped. Sorted out the closet, threw away junk that was just hangin' around there and spreading god-knows-what kind of occult dark energy. Last night I slept ok, I think I got 6 hours. Got some energy back, good for sponging, scrubbing and cleansing my house. I think I have sharper taste already and my morning squeak has vanished! Also when I take a deep breath, I am able to uhhhhhh. How do I say that. Complete it? Finish it up to the point where my lungs feel full? Well, whatever. It's a joy, anyway.
August 31, 20188 yr 5 hours ago, My life, my recovery said: In order to create a sleep sanctuary in my bedroom, I started by cleaning the windows inside and outside. Put the curtains in the machine, fresh sheets on the bed after cleaning the bed itself, vacuumd and mopped. Sorted out the closet, threw away junk that was just hangin' around there and spreading god-knows-what kind of occult dark energy. Last night I slept ok, I think I got 6 hours. Got some energy back, good for sponging, scrubbing and cleansing my house. I think I have sharper taste already and my morning squeak has vanished! Also when I take a deep breath, I am able to uhhhhhh. How do I say that. Complete it? Finish it up to the point where my lungs feel full? Well, whatever. It's a joy, anyway. AH yes! the feeling of the deep breath! I know just what you are saying!!!!!!!!!! I was experiencing a lot of shortness of breath (paired w anxiety) but now that i haven't smoked in 18 days (who is counting?) i do NOT feel that and can breath like idk....a normal person? Congrats on this!!!!
August 31, 20188 yr Author 24 minutes ago, Christa326 said: AH yes! the feeling of the deep breath! I know just what you are saying!!!!!!!!!! I was experiencing a lot of shortness of breath (paired w anxiety) but now that i haven't smoked in 18 days (who is counting?) i do NOT feel that and can breath like idk....a normal person? Congrats on this!!!! So good to hear your breathing is also improving. How about the anxiety? So far I'm surprised, I don't have significantly more panic attacks. They are not decreasing either, maybe when all is balanced out a bit more ..
August 31, 20188 yr Author Thanks @jillar. I try to mention the benefits every day, part of staying committed to my quit. ?
August 31, 20188 yr 18 minutes ago, My life, my recovery said: So good to hear your breathing is also improving. How about the anxiety? So far I'm surprised, I don't have significantly more panic attacks. They are not decreasing either, maybe when all is balanced out a bit more .. @My life, my recovery - i have to admit my anxiety has gone down A LOT since quitting, I noticed this when i quit last time as well. I still have it especially in certain situations but it is much better without nicotine. @jillar - thanks so much!!!!!!!!
August 31, 20188 yr Author Here I go again. Emotions all over the place. Since late afternoon feeling unsteady and on top of that, judgemental about it. And so addict thoughts pop up like weeds after a rain shower. Got to put them where they belong: the land of the fairy tales. I will NOT feel better when I smoke. I will feel better when I start accepting myself more. Breathing out smoke is NOT soothing. After writing this, finishing laundry and then having a walk will calm me down. Driving to the gas station and buying cigarettes will NOT be like 'I don't care and even about that I don't care'. I want to care. I do care. And so I stay home. And do stuff that's actually good for me.
August 31, 20188 yr My life, I stayed close to home my first month or two and only ventured out when my hubby could go with me because I didn't trust myself not to give in. You are doing EVERYTHING right!
August 31, 20188 yr Your brain and body are being reconfigured. This is a great opportunity to learn a lot about yourself and what to change or how to adapt. Be kind to yourself and lavish yourself with all kinds of rewards to reclaim your endorphins...wrench them away from nicotine's power.
August 31, 20188 yr No extra points for making quitting harder. Shut down the addict thoughts a fast as possible. Tell yourself to move on.
September 1, 20188 yr Author 7 hours ago, jillar said: My life, I stayed close to home my first month or two and only ventured out when my hubby could go with me because I didn't trust myself not to give in. You are doing EVERYTHING right! Wow, talkin'about self discipline! Thanks for your support. Good to know other people have been there too. Sometimes I wonder, what's crazier. The addiction or the ways we have to deal with fighting, accepting and finally living with it ?
September 1, 20188 yr Author 7 hours ago, Sazerac said: Your brain and body are being reconfigured. This is a great opportunity to learn a lot about yourself and what to change or how to adapt. Be kind to yourself and lavish yourself with all kinds of rewards to reclaim your endorphins...wrench them away from nicotine's power. Concerning reconfiguration.. I slept for 5 whole hours this night ?. Yesterday as well, silently hoping this will be the announcement of better sleep times. And otherwise it will give me just about enough rest to battle on ?. Today will be day 10. Sounds good to me. Amidst all of the fuss there's one steady factor: not smoking today! Edited September 1, 20188 yr by My life, my recovery
September 1, 20188 yr Author 6 hours ago, Paul723 said: No extra points for making quitting harder. Shut down the addict thoughts a fast as possible. Tell yourself to move on. Yep, no lingering. Deflating these thoughts head on! Like with really bad farts, it's essential to let the air out or it will eat you from the inside...
September 1, 20188 yr Author Made these a long time ago. 'And here I am, using my own lungs like a sucker' - Homer
September 1, 20188 yr 4 hours ago, My life, my recovery said: 1 hour ago, My life, my recovery said: Made these a long time ago. 'And here I am, using my own lungs like a sucker' - Homer Fab !!!!.....I sense a bit of humour appearing... Lol..... Quitting is not all doom and gloom...it can be fun... Those lungs are cool...
September 1, 20188 yr 1 hour ago, Doreensfree said: On having another look...my dirty gutter brain has kicked in.. Now that you mention it, mine does too!
September 1, 20188 yr 1 hour ago, My life, my recovery said: I was wondering who'd be the first to mention ? Lol... Dam I should have waited ..thankfully I'm not the only dirty ticket around here.... Have you got the pattern ...whahaha..... Mine will need alot of wool...
September 1, 20188 yr Author @Doreensfree ha, nope sorry. Made it freestyle. ? I crocheted other stuff by the way, in the direction you are thinking of. Art, I call it. Not sure if it's appropriate for here though.. Edited September 1, 20188 yr by My life, my recovery
September 2, 20188 yr Author Day eleven: completed. Did the swimming bear, waving reed, I flied and made waves. Quit Gong, so to speak. Made me relaxed and I want to incorporate it into morning- and evening rituals. Heading towards 2 weeks, next wednesday evening. I'm on the right track, education is making some room now for deeper breathing and stretching. Although I'm still edgy, I have a kind of new calm. I'm somewhat easier in arguments and am feeling less agressive. Because hey, I've killed almost twice, last week.. and today I 'solved' an argument by leaving the situation and shouting bitchy statements through the wall. Progression ? Long story short... let's continue!
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