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I know all the answers to your questions. Yes to all 3! Who cares how many attempts you've made at quitting? You know how many times I told my wife I was going to quit and she just rolled her eyes and said "didn't you just say that yesterday?" Then I would come up withe some excuse. I quit for me. I didn't give a damn what anybody thought about my success or failure. Screw everybody else. This is about you. Please stop messing around with your life and quit. Look, this may be hard for you to quit or it might not. Right now your mind is your own worst enemy. Your inner junkie, strung out on nicotine, is telling you that you're going to fail, that you don't have the strength and the truth is that it's telling you that you don't want to quit. You're believing the lies. Smoking is of no benefit to you! All you're doing is chasing temporary relief from withdrawal and torturing yourself, not to mention slowly killing yourself. This is what it's come down to. It's time to quit smoking and stop listening to the lies in your head. Look at your quit buddy, IamDoingIt. He posted a great thread the other day about his relapse and his newfound commitment to quitting.

So good to hear from you Amy! I completely understand what you are saying and I have even experienced those feelings and thoughts myself. The truth is though, that you don't have the option any longer of not thinking about what smoking is doing to you. You have too much information now. You know there is a forum in which to get support. You know that while it may not have been the best feeling as the nicotine left your system , it wasn't as bad as you've imagined it would be either. So the question is not if you'll quit , but when? To me since you're going to quit anyway you might as well do it now. It's too late to go back to the cocoon, you're a butterfly! xoxo

So sorry for your loss. Losing them is the hardest part. The Rainbow Bridge By the edge of a woods, at the foot of a hill, Is a lush, green meadow where time stands still. Where the friends of man and woman do run, When their time on earth is over and done. For here, between this world and the next, Is a place where each beloved creature finds rest. On this golden land, they wait and they play, Till the Rainbow Bridge they cross over one day. No more do they suffer, in pain or in sadness, For here they are whole, their lives filled with gladness. Their limbs are restored, their health renewed, Their bodies have healed, with strength imbued. They romp through the grass, without even a care, Until one day they start, and sniff at the air. All ears prick forward, eyes dart front and back, Then all of a sudden, one breaks from the pack. For just at that instant, their eyes have met; Together again, both person and pet. So they run to each other, these friends from long past, The time of their parting is over at last. The sadness they felt while they were apart, Has turned into joy once more in each heart. They embrace with a love that will last forever, And then, side-by-side, they cross over… together.

Congratulations Jules ! Your First Month of Freedom makes everybody Here really Stoked. Really Happy. We know what it is all about ! I have a few long distance friends, former Drug Addicts, who are very encouraging to me but, I find all the solace and inspiration and encouragement I need here on the QTrain. The QTrain is an amazing collective and someone is bound to understand exactly what you are going through and have just the right words for your ears. I am so happy you are Free from Nicotine, Jules. Please celebrate this important milestone in a special way...we are lighting fireworks for you. Love, S

note to self. dont shave the dog when craving for a smoke. not a good combination

Thanks for the support and yes I just got back from the tournament that was at the bar and about 15 or so out of the 20 of us playing were all drinking and smoking like crazy. I am very happy and proud to say that I never even considered having even one puff- NOPE for me!!! I didn't even have a drink I had nothing but water and fun - I drove home smiling!

Amy if I can quit anybody can quit.

Buddy - I am SOOOO bloody excited to see this post!! I am absolutely, utterly willing you on from here. Let's see, can you quit - yes. Will it hurt - no. Will it feel tough at time -yes, but that's life mate, if it wasn't smoking it could be work or family etc. Shhhh, but I didn't know this quit was "the one" BUT, I did know one of them had to be as quitting was getting to be a habit and I was too ashamed to tell anyone I was trying again! I was plain furious when someone saw my champix as I had tried to hide it for fear of failing and looking like a failure. (note, the only person who ever matters is you, be responsible for you and you alone!!). Everything to gain and nothing really to lose?? Either way, keep reading and lurking. Can't smoke forever, it's too grim for you. Constant craves all day every day get exhausting eventually, quitting is easier then that for sure! A bad day is just a bad day, a normal smoking dayis 20+ craves!! Don't have to be einstein to work out what would be easier longer term!! Loves!! xx

That's the way!! Keep climbing, you are doing great!! Here are a couple of giant helium filled balloons. Hopefully that will lighten the load a bit. :)

Thanks! I don't know how to reply to individual comments - I need a button - something clear and obvious. So, just a general thanks for the info and encouragement. Day 2, feeling good :)

MQ, Hey boss, what about the old server, can I have it to power my Delorean so I finally can get back to the 70's or 80's? Thanks and good luck!

I had a real nice server tonight at the Ponderosa, that place has the best steak

Sorry Oneistoo I just reread your comment. My mind has been everywhere past couple days. I will try to cut some off tomorrow and see if that helps a little. If this is how its going to be every time I change a patch I'd almost rather take a couple of days to withdraw and screw the patch

Thanks, I've learned that nothing is impossible if you trust the Lord.

One of the countless rewards for not smoking ! I'm real young in this quit and have to remember these things when I get the call of the wild ! Thanks Colleen !

I was just thinking about this, Jules. Thinking about what I know and keep private. What I Know Now about myself nearing a year Free from Nicotine. I know I have the ability to Change. I know have the ability to commit to something for success. I know I have the ability to face fears. These, I mostly keep to myself but, they give me a sort of Glow. I know from a warm good feeling about myself inside and from a clarity in my eye. I did not back down. I will not back down. Like our Sarah says, "I am a Tiger ! RARRRR!

Never give up.....don't wait for the scary health risks.... I was faced with having my both feet amputated..... Jump right back on.....I didn't think it would happen to me either.... If I can quit ....you can....I promise.....

Wonderful! I wish you would copy and paste to "Quit Smoking Discussions" so that everyone will be sure to see!!

What beautiful Lungs you have ! man, our bodies are so amazing to recover from damage. Sleep apnea gets fixed ? and you get to actually SLEEP ? how novel ! Good luck with all the rest of the poking and prodding. Make sure Witch Doctors stay clear of your Funny Bone, it don't need no fixing. Love, S

remember this day. this is the first day of the rest of your life with no nicotine in your body and you never have to subject yourself to that kind of poison again. the choice is yours. celebrate the freedom and suck in the fresh clean air. your body has waited a long time for this day. you are rocking this quit. :)

Wow. Great news, Chrysalis. Very good the Two Sisters kept their distance and kept Mother FIRST. You must be exhausted. Make sure you eat something decent and try to get a good nights sleep. Hooray for your Mom...she sounds like she is a powerhouse. Keep your NOPE on, baby. Love, S

Amy Failure is to stop trying. Success is to keep trying. You are here because you want to quit, you absolutely can do it. We will all do everything in our power to help and cheer you along. Go for it!

Amy, The only reason you are still hanging around here is because you want to quit. Bite the bullet, think of how good you are going to feel once you establish yourself as a non-smoker. Go for it, Amy! We are in your corner and will be here for you with every twist and turn :)

It's really (really) great to see you Amy. My one piece of advice for you today is - it's better to try and have a chance of failing, than it is to not try at all - you can't win the lottery of you don't buy a ticket... Give yourself that chance, and we will do everything in our power to help you get to where you want to be; a nonsmoker :)

If you are not afraid of success, you will succeed.

you just need to be smart Amy, when you figure it out there is a seat right by me with your name on it! I can wait but can you? can your health? Im very pleased you stuck around (see I know you are smart) xx

Amy you can do it, seriously you can....just trust what all of us, who have done, are saying to you. So glad you're around again xx

Amy fantastic to see this post, it shows you are still here still wanting to quit, but the damn addiction has taken that hold again, shake it free Amy hunny, you know it doesn't hurt, its just the fear of being without nicotine, but you can survive without it, and you know that you can, you need to close your eyes and let go we are all here ready to catch you, the longer you keep smoking the harder it will be to loosen the grip of the addiction, make a decision Amy my lovely and come back and join us xxx

I know what you mean, completely. Go easy on yourself, you don't have to save the world right now, you just have to not smoke. I found, once I wasn't smoking anymore, everything else got just a little easier to deal with. Before I always had the problem at hand, and the problem of addiction. Now it's just the problem at hand. You are doing great :)

SHARK WEEK !!!!!!

Don't you dare ...you don't need any lessons in being evil...because it wouldn't be you! Your feelings are never dumb, childish or not worth having it, don't you ever think that! You are special my Dear! A guard doesn't shield you from getting hurt, it just seems so...but makes you feel lonely in the long run. (((DD))))

Oh, Marti, you are so brave for expressing all this! I understand completely what you are saying! Adult children, especially daughters, so often feel badly when they just can't love an abusive or aloof mother. But I find it ironic that the abusive or aloof mothers have no such feeling or consideration for their adult children. Why is that, do you think? If sharing some DNA is the basis for a parent/child relationship, shouldn't it work in both directions? And if it doesn't work in both directions (which it so often does not) maybe DNA really has no relationship to love, warmth and caring. Of course you don't wish your mother ill; you just don't want to live with her any more. Why should that make you a bad person??!! Heck, she doesn't want to live with you anymore, either, right? So fair's fair. This incident with your mother's health (what was it? a stroke? a diabetic coma?) is NOT a trigger for you to smoke. You were looking for a trigger at about this date and so you decided to attach a smoking trigger to your mother's hospitalization. But if this date did not have so much significance for your quit, I bet that you would see your mother's hospitalization not as a stressor, but as a relief. At least she will be out of your house for a few days. Hallelujah! So stop inappropriately attaching smoking significance to your mother's illness. Wish her well and be glad she is out of your house for a while. Don't feel guilty about your honest emotions and Keep Your (f*ckin) Quit!! You CAN do this! C

Pfft, what does your friend know about addiction... Well, I'M proud you of, Jules ;) you are ROCKING it :d Happy for you :)

This was my entry on the same day as you would be on above: Meh today sucks, I am doing a whole body shake thing on and off, so tempting to cheat but it's only me I'm cheating...and I don't want too, so I'm not sure why I keep wanting to smoke, when I don't want to smoke?? Everything and everyone is getting on my nerves, I get the ride it out and this too shall pass but wow, I don't even know why I'm feeling this or what to do to fill the gaps left by smoking (time wise I mean). My skin is on fire and so itchy too, especially my face and neck. I feel gluggy where I'm sipping water so often lol. Anyway I made a ticker to track progress, perhaps it will re-focus me. I was very unsure as well!! But I trusted the guys who said it would get better, it really did get better. Also every "hard day" like that made my quit much stronger. You've now seen even when it feels bad you can un-elegantly plod through and that will serve you well for future triggers. You are doing it exactly right and where you should be. Today will feel much better because of what you faced down yesterday, I bet on it :) xx

Day 6 not to bad. Little crave here and there but all in all definitely doable.

About quitting. Baffled told me it's perfectly acceptable to feel batshit crazy, especially against your partner, however don't kill em in case you like em after the non smoking dust has settled :) Of course she said it more eloquently haha. You're doing great Holski. I feel for you as I've been where you are but you are letting it make you stronger! The wobble was only a wobble, you righted yourself and these are the times that make our quit more solid, more real and I am happy you are through that. Happy to see you almost at a quarter of a year. xx

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Sending lots of goodness to you. You are so strong, Sammie. Strong and FREE !!! Love, S

Congratulations on your new freedom! Keep writing, all stories here are an inspiration for me :)

I love to sing in the car too! I love that I don't cough like I'm dying when I laugh really hard.

Amy, what do you have to lose by quitting again? Why do you think you can't do it?

I agree with mq 100 percent amy now is the best time to quit who care what others think your the one that matters you can do this please don't wait life is to short so hang in there jump in the water is fine swmoking is a life or death thing smoking = death quitting = life we are here to support you amy set that date and quit

You have such a beautiful soul Marti

Holski, I feel for you. :( Depression consumed me for months after my mom passed away. Like Ava/Jen said, just take it easy on yourself. Rest and relax. Deep breaths. Know that things will be okay. Virtual hugs.

For your own peace of mind sis, just be done with those yucky cigs :)

I will seriously kick your ass if it's not. Well, not really but you're gonna make it stick this time. Don't give in anymore. Don't settle for anything less than the freedom that you deserve. Don't ever give an inch to this addiction. If I can stay quit, trust me, you certainly can too.

he felt bad as he hasn`t done what you have done - I bet when he walked away he admired you and if he did not - then he is a total tool! good for you for being strong jackie - very proud of you x

((Hugs)) If beating ourselves up was an effective way to change a thought/feeling/behavior.....it would have worked a long time ago. You didn't smoke today. So you win! :)

Lovely thing to do, highly recommend anyone that has not read it to do what he said ^^^^^^^ great book..