I have started volunteering soo much more at the boys schools, something I have previously refused to do because I wouldn't be able to smoke and was afraid of having to be too close to other parents and teachers cos they would smell the smoke off me and I was soo ashamed of smoking, I would die if they had said anything to me about it,
Have to make a load of Halloween treats and help sell them on Friday for a bake sale at James school, normally I'd not offer to help but now I'm Happy to do it and my son is delighted, he really wanted me to go to the party and sell the cakes (apparently cos the cake sellers get to bring home all the leftovers so thats why he wants me there lll)
Less time is wasted, more motivated to get out more with kids and hubby, more confidence, alot more calmer, I hated when we were out for the day and I kept trying to find excuses to disappear for a smoke and getting all angsty and stressed wanting one that I'd end up always getting everyone to leave earlier just because I wanted a stupid bloody cigarette.
Fedl very guilty when i think of all the day outs I've ruined on my family because I choose cigarettes over my babies fun ; (
Never ever again will I pick cigs over my family, now we go out it's for the whole day and I get to enjoy every second of it :)