Glad you're doing so much better, Tracey. Things always look different after 12 hrs or so have passed. When we're angry, sad or in a crisis situation, we can be our own worst enemy because all we have is our current mindset to bounce our feelings and thoughts off of and when we're emotional, we're not capable of making sound decisions. It's so important to reach out and share feelings when you're pissed off, sad or beyond pissed off and are seeing red. It may be the last thing we think we need to do, but often times the right thing to do is the hardest or most uncomfortable.
You used Paul as your sounding board and what he did is something that we're incapable of doing by ourselves when we're in the middle of a crisis. Your outlook changed dramatically in a very short amount of time.
I hope the lurkers see this thread and pay attention because of the many benefits of a quit smoking support group, the 24/7 support that is available online is beyond price. Get involved and get to know other members because that way, when you need a little help, you know the source and it can make the difference of lighting up or not.
Great job, Tracey. Paul, you quite possibly saved a quit and even if Tracey would have held her own, you quieted her mind and spoke reason to her. Again, beyond price. :)