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Day 3 was difficult as I have been extremely emotional. I am not sure if I can explain my feelings in words but will try. I was watching my Day 3 videos by Joel Spitzer and there was one that I had watched before. When I watched it the first time I felt sad but continued to smoke. When I watched it earlier it brought out feelings in me that I didn't even realise were there. After watching it today I sobbed for hours for my own mum. I watched my mum die due to smoking and then I smoked my way through her death, her funeral and then during a very long period of grief. Today I feel as though I am going through a second cycle of grief. My beautiful mum was taken from us because she was addicted to smoking. This thought has tortured me most of the day and my heart is breaking for her. I'm seeing this addiction for what it really is and I'm angry. I'm keeping that anger for another day though as today I need to cry only for my mum. I'm now in Day 4.

Thanks so much. I'm going to post the first three days just to keep the excitement ?

Day 2 is done but today I felt a little less upbeat than yesterday. The ulcer in my mouth seems to have moved it's friends in. I can now feel a few ulcers which is making eating virtually impossible due to the pain. I'm drinking plenty but I think I really could do with a proper meal. I thought I would have some soup tonight but for some reason I didn't even enjoy it. I don't know if that's because of the ulcers, if my taste buds are changing or if it's the two tubes of Bonjela I have tucked in my cheeks. In a perverse way I'm actually enjoying what withdrawal is bringing. This is the worst quit physically I have ever had but I stuck it out and another day is done. I watched all the Joel Spitzer Day 2 videos today and gained more knowledge to keep me focused on the end goal. I'm now in Day 3.

Day 2 is done but today I felt a little less upbeat than yesterday. The ulcer in my mouth seems to have moved it's friends in. I can now feel a few ulcers which is making eating virtually impossible due to the pain. I'm drinking plenty but I think I really could do with a proper meal. I thought I would have some soup tonight but for some reason I didn't even enjoy it. I don't know if that's because of the ulcers, if my taste buds are changing or if it's the two tubes of Bonjela I have tucked in my cheeks. In a perverse way I'm actually enjoying what withdrawal is bringing. This is the worst quit physically I have ever had but I stuck it out and another day is done. I watched all the Joel Spitzer Day 2 videos today and gained more knowledge to keep me focused on the end goal. I'm now in Day 3.

I can't post the video from my phone but it is Fight Song by Rachel Platten ? This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Thanks for your posts guys. It makes such a big difference to have the congratulations ??

I will take fluffy, toughie and everything in-between. I have learnt in the last 24 hours it's hard to quit alone. Sometimes you don't appreciate your quit family until they're not there.

The first day is done and I am giving myself a massive pat on the back and having my own little celebration. I'm really proud that I got through today. Mentally wasn't too bad and physically it was bearable. Only negative is I have a really big ulcer in my mouth which is so painful and no amount of Bonjela will help. Joel Spitzer has put together videos to watch during the first week which are on the link below. I watched all the Day 1 section today and learnt so much, plus it was a great way to keep busy. I'm now in Day 2. https://whyquit.com/joel/index-guide.html

This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me By Rachel Platten

I have been in a constant cycle of quit/relapse/quit/relapse for such a long time and it's exhausting. If you are in that relapse cycle too and really want to quit, educate yourself properly by watching the Joel Spitzer videos on this forum, head over to the WhyQuit website to watch even more and spend lots of time here for support, encouragement and distraction. A good starting point if you are planning to quit is on the link below. https://whyquit.com/joel/dayzero.htm

The first day is done and I am giving myself a massive pat on the back and having my own little celebration. I'm really proud that I got through today. Mentally wasn't too bad and physically it was bearable. Only negative is I have a really big ulcer in my mouth which is so painful and no amount of Bonjela will help. Joel Spitzer has put together videos to watch during the first week which are on the link below. I watched all the Day 1 section today and learnt so much, plus it was a great way to keep busy. I'm now in Day 2. https://whyquit.com/joel/index-guide.html

This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me By Rachel Platten

I have been in a constant cycle of quit/relapse/quit/relapse for such a long time and it's exhausting. If you are in that relapse cycle too and really want to quit, educate yourself properly by watching the Joel Spitzer videos on this forum, head over to the WhyQuit website to watch even more and spend lots of time here for support, encouragement and distraction. A good starting point if you are planning to quit is on the link below. https://whyquit.com/joel/dayzero.htm

I'm a newbie and I loved the quit tool box idea when it was mentioned. It is full to the brim. Sweets of every variety ie soft caramel toffees (these are amazing), mints, chocolate (I mean like 30 bars), parma violets, liquorice, foamy bananas and rice krispie squares Puzzle books Stress balls (I'm surprised they haven't burst yet) A copy of Oasis song stop crying your heart out (I play this when I feel down and it makes me feel worst ??) A notebook to write all my thoughts in 3000 bags of Marmite crisps (it's a big box) Tissues and my bottle of aromatherapy oil A ball of wool and needles (not used yet as can't knit) A jigsaw puzzle Relaxation CD My empty charm bracelet

Glad to see you are ok Rhino. With NRT I think that's a personal choice. The nicotine going is the easiest part in my opinion, it's the mental part that's the hardest and the longest. I think sometimes we get in a panic and think we're going to smoke, but once we say the words out loud to someone on here we calm down. I think that's probably where an SOS helps. I've been struggling the last couple of days but have found the games help me. I don't think weegie woman realised how much they were helping me by playing with me. Enjoy your beer ?

Just doing a face pack

I'm a bit busy - got to face up the store

Face ache

Zombies For obvious reasons ?

She has the face of a saint - a St Bernard

Your face offends me

I pledge that no matter what life brings me today I will not smoke ?

Oh wee fluffy me don't do it. You've come so far. Just remember it's never just one mini pack of maltesers, it's the thousands that follow ???

I'm kicking sand in your face