"Part of me is so proud of myself that I set it up for her to respect my quit. But then part of me is a little weirded out. Somehow it seems like a finality. I don't know if that makes sense or not. "
First, you should be proud. You passed a huge test today and that is awesome. Second, be glad of the "finality" part of it. It IS final. This is your sticky quit...you are a non-smoker. You should be rejoicing not getting weirded out!
" Although I am glad I am quit again, I do have a little sadness about it. I associate smoking with so many things, so many emotions. It's amazing how much power I have given to a cigarette. "
Again, don't be sad. Quitting smoking is the best decision you will ever make. It is going to take some tie to stop associating smoking with everything you do in life. But it will get easier. I promise you that. Each time you do an activity/experience an emotion that would normally cause you to smoke, you will become that much stronger.
MQ shared the following with me. I think you will find it helpful. Tomorrow is day 3...that is awesome!
There is a rule of 3's. Here is a good video and you can apply it to any part of your life to grow. Please, please watch it. This is where I got the "get comfortable being uncomfortable" note. Couldn't be more true when it comes to quitting smoking.