Trish

Congrats, Ron. Thanks for always being so awesome. You're doing amazing!

I am not a girly girl. I like to build stuff... I don't mind getting dirty... I know how to use a chainsaw but it still scares me.... Jengels...you can caption this one:

Awesome job, Beth. Such a strong woman.

Congratulations Ava! You are awesome!

Hey guys...I am still here. Sorry was gone all day at a softball tournament yesterday. I realized yesterday that I enjoyed the tournaments much more as a non smoker. I have enjoyed pretty much everything more as a non smoker. So I am planning on tomorrow as my new quit date. Amy and I will have the same date. I feel happy about it so why do still feel so scared? In limbo right now.

Congratulations! Amazing!

Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great day!

Congratulations Stu!

Congrats!

Friends...all of it.

Rez...this is so me.

You did awesome!

It was cursing when I lived in PA....now that I live in TX, it's cussing. :)

I vote for Sarge's names...

I have the hard copy of easy way (read twice) and the ebook of only way (reading now).

I totally agree.

No I am not quit yet. I feel more scared now then I did back in Feb. when I started. I know there is a conversation I have to have that is not going to be pleasant at all. Hoping I can get it over with tonight and find some kind of resolution to some issues. I don't want to give up. I really don't. I just hate feeling like a failure.

So I did it again. WTF is wrong with me. Really don’t feel comfortable putting any specific details out there in public. Nobody wants to hear excuses anyway. Couldn’t post an SOS. Had been out running errand last Thursday and picked up cigs for my dad. Then headed to get girls from school. Went to their mother’s house after school. Sent SD to show my sister the dogs out back. I made my way through the house just checking on things as needed. Saw a lighter on the dining room table. I just lost it. Went out to the car, opened the pack and smoked one. So I have been through the anger relapse, the alcohol relapse…this one has been a combination….stress, frustration, anger, etc. When will I learn that life is pretty much always going to suck and stop using it as an excuse to smoke. Why the f*** do I continue to torture myself? Anyway just got back from the airport and have the house to myself. Was going to meet up at the softball tournament but really don’t feel like it. Can’t decide whether to sleep, cry or drink. Maybe all three. I’m really f-ing pissed at myself. This is going to be my last quit because I am f-ing tired. Tired of quitting…tired of being angry…just f-ing tired of everything. All this journey has shown me is that I am not a very strong person or I am not very intelligent...or maybe both. Seriously, should I just give up? FML

You have already done it, so you know you can. YOU CAN DO THIS!

I am so sorry, Babs. That is such a scary situation. I am glad everyone is ok.

Great job, Marti!

YOUR OWN WORDS: Martine Louise are you shi*ting me, you lead, that is what you do - who will you lead with smoking, shall we give Milly or Bella the first cigarette. It will never be ok to be this addict, it is not who you are, you cannot heal people and help people as an addict. Now man the fu*k up and lead like you were born to do. And hugs, you are strong enough to do this no matter what you are facing this moment! If you doubt yourself go listen to a COPD cough, or read on lung cancer that stole your beloved peter. No more shoulda, coulda, woulda...if I want it I do it...Nathan 2008. Now stop being such a donut! xx

Marti...TRUST ME....DON'T SMOKE. DON'T RUIN YOUR QUIT!