Evelyn

Yup we all started the first to be cool!

I wrangled my bowel out... diarrhea again.

I feel awfull, crying, scared and HATE THIS

Got triggered and have had a panick attack

Junkie thinking: I need to quit cold turkey so just 1 cig and I'll quit. Response = I'll never be able to quit cold turkey with all my mental health issues it's an excuse to light a cig Junkie thinking: My patch needs to be refreshed I won't get enough nicotine, it will fall off. Response = My patch still sticks fine it's my OCD or a hard time when I want to refresh my patch and I do NOT need to refresh it twice a day Junkie thinking: once I'm off the patch I'll die because I have no nicotine anymore I'll get psychotic and / or in crisis Response = I only get in psychosis when I quit cold turkey and we weans off the the nicotine slowly so any craving we can manage with a NOPE and we won't die because we won't smoke or don't have nicotine, we die BECAUSE of SMOKING Junkie thinking: But if I don't have any nicotine anymore I'll panick Response = We only panick because we have for the fear to quit the nicotine nothing will happen if we sit it out with a NOPE

Congratulations!!!!!

I pledge not to smoke and realise don't need to smoke or refresh my patch a second time

Thanks both of you :)

Thanks sweety (((hugs)))

Congratulations for the 9 MONTHS

That's just awesome!!!!!! :D

I'm in there for a while....

You all rock!

It's not only grief but my WHOLE freakin' emotional balance must be found back. I think I'm also processing trauma memories.

I am :D

A book called, 'Tears in a jar'. - by I. Livestro

It's just the emotional shit that bugs me - a lot of anger - tears and stuff

I did the pledge this morning :P

Annael said it right we won't bite (hard) sometimes we bark or meow :D

Good you did it smoke-free :D

But thank you all for caring so much, to ask for me.

I'm struggling with my emotions and cyclus of nicotine. I haven't refreshed my patch for the second time today so that's good! But I feel like crying and it hurts, my past hurts. I even hid in bed for two hours. I hate these emotions.

NOPE no smoking and no refreshing my patch today

Lol me too, you're a blast