Evelyn
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BTW this patch 3 gives limited withdrawls atm. A little, It put it on last evening (10:15 AM here now)I am now on the lowest step patch nicotine step 3. I'll keep it this way till Easter weekend Saterday 19th then I take it off. WHY THEN? Because everytime I go without nicotine I freak out and in that weekend from Saterday till Monday a vry close friend is with me. I will be distracted from the 'oh, no patch HELP I need to smoke'- to my friends company. Of course I'll post here too but by Monday most withdrawls will be over so it's easier and the chance I won't relapse is bigger. Call it a safety net. She a very close friend who I can talk about anything with. Well almost everything she knows my parts and she too has DID. So if any of my parts start freaking out, I can either tell her, call my surrogate mom AND ring and SOS here! Good plan huh?Good, better - I decided not to let my parents especially my mom have that effect on my. I sometimes hurt but no longer let it ruin my day - my moms neglect in my early years... screw her. I confused missing her with the feeling of abandonment I felt the early years. It damn well hurts but I won't let her have that powr over me!NOPE, HUGE NOPE from meBakon I was already using the nrt gum so I only switchThank you, I was asleep having nightmares ugh but just waking upI'm back on the nicotine patch now. This works for me bestIm going to read my bibleI almost blew my quit after therapy todayGood you make the appointment - depression is very hard!And yes it's weekly :) I work on trauma stuff that happend in the past, with my partsIt's a sign you worked hard -Therapy was hard - taxi went fine :)I'm a mess right nowNope no licking taxi windows hahahahaWith the taxi, to the therapy today. I'm a little anxious - if you don't here of me half a day I am away LOL one hour and a half to get there, almost an hour therapy and then get back home with taxi. So about a little hour I'm away....You two go kick some cigs ass!Thanks for letting us knowMe! A huge NOPE I will not smoke todayYou can do this oh boy I know the sneaky thought just one but there's not just one puff it will always be more sorry I was asleep - just woke up and saw your SOS keep the quitOne of the most beautifull songs I ever heard that applies to meThank you :)
