intoxicated yoda

Ol' yoda got a little story to tell. Yep, I'm back to being Andy DuFresne crawling through shit today to get to freedom. I had been doing pretty good then one little moment of weakness and a half a bag of Cheetos later put me right back in the bad place. Bloated up like bull frog, cravings almost as bad as they've ever been and almost 4 lbs of something reattached itself to my ass. The focus and clarity I was starting to get is gone and the energy I was beginning to feel has also left. So what's the moral to the story. The cleaner I eat the easier the quit. It's easier to stay healthy than to get healthy. Hopefully I don't suffer for weeks for this but if that's the punishment then I'll just have to take it on the chin and keep going. I know come Thanksgiving I'll most likely ruin myself again but these are the choices we make. The silver lining is I haven't smoked. Even though I thought about it I never really viewed it as an option. Maybe getting over the addiction to sugar and carbs is replacing the cravings for nicotine. I don't know. Maybe it's like what women used to say about relationships...the best way to get over and old lover is to get under a new one. Not sure how that relates to a man and his addictions but whatever. I hope everyone else is having an awesome weekend. I do get strength and conviction from seeing all you good people succeed. Let's me know I can do it too and for that I thank and love you all. Peace

Great job Kris. Keep it going. The best is yet to come!!

Hi Darcy. I was gonna beat up on you but you seem to be doing the job good enough. I know it's tough. There is that feeling of loss that you can't get that time back, But the reality is the past is gone and no longer is. The future isn't here and hasn't yet become. All that is is now. Live in the moment and quit for just that moment. No guilt, no shame, just be. You can do it.

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Good evening my junkie and ex junkie friends...thought I would give you guys a little update on my current quit situation. First a little recap and definition of how severe things had gotten for me. The bloating I was experiencing had gotten to the point of being painful. The weight gain was concerning as hell since my worst fear of quitting was realized and then some. Getting fat as hell. Before quitting I stayed around 163 to 165. In less than 11 weeks I topped out at 199. YIKES!!!. I definitely pulled the pin on the fat grenade and blew the **** up! So I lost track of when I quit the coffee and started the kombucha tea but I believe it's been about 10 or 11 days. I was supposed to be drinking some apple cider vinegar and lemon juice before bed but I forget to do that most of the time. Been eating carnivore for the last 4 days and only eating one meal a day but I don't skimp on that meal. The results....drum roll please. Over the last 10 days I've dropped from a high weight of 199 to a low weight of 188. Meals exit with about the same frequency as they enter and the bloating is only after meals, mild and usually only lasts for about an hour or so. That tells me that my stomach acid is building back up to where it needs to be for proper digestion. I'm slowly retraining my brain to not have my hands shove everything in sight that looks like food down my pie hole in a neverending binge. Another side effect is the problems with my back, hips and shoulders seem to be getting better as well. I'm still hacking up phlegm. As far as the quit...well let me tell you, I still see myself lighting up in my minds eye but the cravings are not as severe. Ever since quitting the coffee the cig cravings have gotten much more tolerable so I don't know what sort of weird ass situation I've gotten myself into but at least it's manageable. I still feel like I need to keep the quit front and center in my mind so I don't wind up half way to the store when I'm going to the golf course (yeah, that happened today). Good sleep is still a luxury that eludes me but hopefully that will start to return over the next few days to weeks. Anyhow, if anybody been following that's had similar problems these are the things i've done that seems to help.

10 years quit!!!! AWESOME!!!!

Congrats @Gus. 8 months free and counting. Fantastic

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that's so amazing. so glad you stuck around.

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@Krisgoing with the flow is a good option and nobody knows you better than you. you got this!!

@jillari prefer a more natural substance. (damn...no bong hit emoji. lol)