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that's so amazing. so glad you stuck around.

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@Krisgoing with the flow is a good option and nobody knows you better than you. you got this!!

@jillari prefer a more natural substance. (damn...no bong hit emoji. lol)

@Krisit is possible, but I tend more towards it being a brain chemistry thing related to not smoking and the weird alterations to my diet that is giving me more trouble than anything. if there was stuff happening before like this before i quit then i would start looking for a different reason, but for now anything that is out of the norm i consider quit related and temporary. with that being said i am start to get a slow improvement since ditching the coffee. instead of falling asleep between 2 and 3 am it's now between 11 and 1. i'm hoping cutting out the carbs and sugar will start to kick in in another week or two. i do hope you find relief for that soon, sleep troubles are the worst.

that's an argument i could see myself making. in the long run though i really want to get to a point where i'm not marking the days since i quit. right now i need to, but ultimately i hope to get to a point where i don't really think about it which leads me to my current problem of thinking about not thinking about it which is just me thinking about it all the time. the mind is so confusing at times...

@KELthat's an interesting thought. don't worry about the emojis though. it's the content that counts and I absolutely loved that content.

@Kristhanks for checking on me. I am east coast of US so I was up kinda late. I'm doing ok this morning. I think if I can ever get my sleep routine back to normal things will vastly improve. I hope you have a great sleep and a wonderful today!!!

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Well, I've been busy the last few days and no time to really sit down and make a thoughtful post. It's enough to say that for some reason this evening I am struggling a little bit. I keep getting these images in my mind of lighting up and inhaling. I can almost feel it. Weird sensation. I feel like these are the things that happen to people who have been quit for a while and then relapse. Maybe this is the no mans land I've read about. I don't know and probably noone could tell me for sure so it's back to the drawing board for now and beat the desire a minute at the time and hope for a better tomorrow. Keep up the good fight everyone. I'll pray that everyone here finds the strength they need to overcome whatever struggle they encounter. Stay positive. Peace

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