Let the Battle begin AGAIN !

[Stewbum]

A relapse with all the normal excuses plus a few new ones... The Shame that keeps one occupied and the fear of failure. Yep I am still alive and ready to start the war all over. 

Monday was my granddaughter's 1st birthday. I would like to be her grandpa for as long as I can. So day 2 of hell week is upon me.

 

I have been sneaking around here for a while and nice to see y'all.

 

I hope my ticket on the train has not lapsed and my seat is still available?

[QuittingGirl]

Hi Stew!!!   Welcome Back!!  Sorry to hear that you relapsed but you know this is the right place to be to quit. Yup, your ticket will always be good on this train!! You know the drill, but my advice is to stay close to the train and do the Daily Nope pledge.  I truly believe that is what has helped me stay quit for 3 years.

Yup, you want to be a part of your granddaughter's life, so quitting smoking is a VERY good idea!!

[Stewbum]

Wow happy 3 year anniversary.

 

Thanks for the reply QG.

[Minnie Mouse]

Welcome Back!  I found it hard to choose to jump back on the Smober Train after a long period of smoking again so congrats for deciding to begin again. Let's make it the last time.  You know the drill.  Whatever it takes to get through the early days is what it takes.  I would work on changing what smoking means to you (why you went back to smoking) to reinforce the foundation for a long term Stay Quit.  And yes, pledge every day (you don't break your promises do you?).  

[Stewbum]

Thanks Minnie.

[DenaliBlues]

Hey @Stewbum, it’s awesome to hear from you! Welcome back. We’ve absolutely been saving a seat for you. First class all the way! You just gotta get thru the “baggage compartment” first. Which means getting thru withdrawal, and letting go of the shame and fear. Addict Mind feeds off of those shame and fear feelings. So be sure to invite some other feelings along for your ride… like hope, renewal, love for your family, and fierce determination. 

 

Welcome back to Hell Week, but you know the terrain. THIS IS TEMPORARY.  Stay busy, beware of stinkin thinkin, and don’t give those cravings your attention. 

 

Let us know how it goes! 

 

 

 

[Stewbum]

Thank you DB I am working with the emotions as we speak. 

[Reciprocity]

Welcome back @Stewbum! 

Many times, quitting is a learning process. We make mistakes, have a weak moment and Boom; starting all over again. This is not a bad thing providing we learn what situation occurred and how we reacted to it and what we shoud have done to avoid it. Truly hoping you've added to your quit tool box through your previous attempts and can find your forever quit this time. It's there in front of you just waiting for you to grab it and ride it to freedom!

[Stewbum]

Thanks Reci.

[Doreensfree]

Well Howdy Stewpot

Well done for coming back to us and not just disappearing ..

Refresh your memory with all the information here 

You can do it …

[Stewbum]

Well hello there Doreen.

Missed you all. My face finally stopped hurting from the slapps.

Happy to be back on the train. and ready to do battle with the old Nicodemon.

[beazel]

Hi Stewbum - hope you remember me from QSMB?

 

My grandson told me how proud of me he was when I quit, I cried.

Your granddaughter is so young, she will never even remember that you ever smoked!! Isn't that cool?

KTQ

[Stewbum]

Thanks Beazel.

Yes not only will she "Millie" know me as a nonsmoker maybe I'll get to spend more time with her.

QSMB, yes I remember and congratulations on your great quit...

[Pilgrim]

Welcome back aboard Stew,

The great thing about this group is that we're all going through it together and know exactly what it's like.

I wish you ironclad resolve in your commitment to staying free from the chains of the Nicodemon.

Go the distance with us.

[johnny5]

Welcome back @Stewbum and sorry to hear about your relapse but you have had good success in starting quits in the past.  The key is sticking with it acknowledging to yourself that smoking is not an option, and reach out for help as you need it (like you are doing now).

 

It is great to have you back here but under sad circumstances.  You need to adhere to staying smoke free for good.  It is very doable.

[Stewbum]

Thanks Johnny.

All help is incredibly appreciated.

[Stewbum]

6 hours ago, Pilgrim said:

Welcome back aboard Stew,

The great thing about this group is that we're all going through it together and know exactly what it's like.

I wish you ironclad resolve in your commitment to staying free from the chains of the Nicodemon.

Go the distance with us.

Thanks Pilgrim.

I am in the clutches at the moment, but I will use your comment of 'ironclad resolve' to help keep me centered. 

[Cbdave]

Gday

I’m glad to see you back. 
Wow it’s been a long time right back to the QSMB times.

You know the drill. You know the beginning bit and the middle bit I’m sure.

Time to work on the end bit. But guess what. You havn’t figured out. There’s no end!

It’s …….. Not One Puff Ever.

Endlessly. On a loop. Rinse Repeat.

I know myself that I am that addict! I will always be “one puff away from 20 a day”

But I have NOPE tattooed on my sole.

 

[Stewbum]

Thanks Dave.

Nice to be back.

Working on the early days. Hell week be dammed.

[QuittingGirl]

How you doing Stew?  Keep close to the Train!!

[Stewbum]

Tired and whooped.

But staying close and reading everything.

Thanks QG.

[Lust4Life2016]

Hi StewBum.  Always a seat here.  Get it done OK?  Life is swell up on the Lido deck.  Get up here and stay! 
L4L

[Stewbum]

Thanks L4L.

Very happy to be here and sad at the same time.

Working through Hell week staying busy with readings from the past. Hell week and cravings are not "yet" what they were on the last quit.

Emotions of being here seem to be keeping my mind busy.

 

Stew.

[Cbdave]

Gday Stew

Sorry owe your an apology for jumping in with the forever bit. 
Had  a real big think of where I was at in those first days and the future could wait as I was definitly living in the now and my days were in bite size pieces.

As the days mounted I started to realise how precious my quit had become. I was going to throw away all those hours and days away if I smoked.
About day 5 I got a great present from my sweetheart when she asked me if I was smoking. I was pretty chuffed that I’d kept it a secret but part of my didn’t want to fail in front of her if truth be told.

She told me she understood it was my battle but not to be a stranger. And she was proud of me. Kinda left a lump in my throat. 
She brings it up ever now and then and it’s pretty special.

Broke my silence and finally showed her the NOPE pledge page just before my 10 th year.

She was pretty impressed. I was pretty proud I could impress my Sweety after 48 years.

Anyway after that rave 

Realise that your dragging along others on this life journey they may not always know it but you are important to them.

Hang on life’s a great journey

[QuittingGirl]

You will do it Stew!!!  I truly believe if you stay on the train, you will achieve your goal like we all have!!!