I am really sad that you are going through this, Kate, but I'm also glad you keep committing to Not One Puff Ever. Smoking will only make things worse.
I'm glad you opened up to what you are going through. I don't open up too much as to what I've gone through here but when I've struggled, I try to take comfort in that at least I finally quit smoking and kept the quit. I gain strength from that. It sounds like you keep coming back to that in your last few sentences. I'm glad you are resolute in staying smoke free despite what you are going through