October 7, 201411 yr And it hurts, I block when I'm alone so can't cry until someones on the phone with me or with me. I HATE it that my therapist is having an pulmonary ammonia this is the second week I can't go.I feel stuck.... this triggers 'my old habbit'. Screw cigarettes and my past...
October 7, 201411 yr It's funny, Evelyn. When I have human hurts, I am fine alone but, when someone is kind to me or (OH NO) gives me a hug I am a puddle ! It is probably good, breaking down like that but I HATE it . Sorry you're feeling crap. was thinking about you last night and wondering if you are making the move to your new home and is your Baptism scheduled ?
October 7, 201411 yr evelyn have you tried to call a help line as they will listen to you, the samaritans are very good, sometimes you have to let it out verbally xx
October 7, 201411 yr Aww sorry your hurtin angel..... Sometime a little cry is good..... I say to folks sometimes.....don't be nice to me.....t makes me worse...... Even folks who have never smoked have a wee weep..... Hugs sweetheart......
October 7, 201411 yr Evelyn for the first time as a non-smoker probably you are facing a rough time. It's okay to be afraid. Don't let that stop you. You quit smoking. ..you can do anything!
October 7, 201411 yr Author I let it out. Feels betterMy baptism will be arranged on short notice, don't know the date yet.
October 7, 201411 yr How are The Pigs (sorry I forgot their names) have they eaten themselves out of their beautiful edible house ?
October 7, 201411 yr I let it out. Feels better My baptism will be arranged on short notice, don't know the date yet. Good - always let it out, crying is your release!! (((Evelyn)))
October 7, 201411 yr Good! Now that you've had your cry...Keep busy Evelyn. When we have too much time to think...that's when trouble starts.
October 7, 201411 yr How are The Pigs ?(sorry I forgot their names)have they eaten themselves out of their beautiful edible house ? Pretty much yeah!!!! Wow, that didn't take too long ! Do you have pictures of the de-construction ? Where are Guinea Pigs natural habitat ? We have these big crazy rodents here in Louisiana called Nutrias. They are terribly destructive to our marshlands but, very cool looking with that big yellow tooth thing going on.
October 7, 201411 yr It's great to hear you ok sweetheart....your a strong lady.... I'm sure if your little piggy wigs could talk....they would say....high five....
October 7, 201411 yr It's ok to hurt my lovely. It's not ok to hurt ourselves any further. I'm pleased you got your pain out, it can do damage inside of us, although I'm sorry you face it. I'm pleased your quit is sticking now, it has to help you to realize there are some things that can be good, like the piggies. Thinking of you. x
October 7, 201411 yr Always let it out, Evelyn. Please don't keep this stuff bottled up because when we do, we can let ourselves go to very dark places. When it hurts too bad to reach out, that's when you need to force yourself to pick up the phone and call somebody. If you were close to where I live, I'd invite you over for dinner and coffee whenever you wanted. My kids would keep your mind off of everything. lol Heck, bring the pigs too. :)
October 8, 201411 yr xoxo Evelyn. You are the bravest of the brave. Keep marching girl. You are in my prayers.
October 8, 201411 yr I have found that youtube relaxation meditations can be of help. I wish you were not feeling this way, but we are all thinking of you Evelyn.
October 8, 201411 yr Don't keep things bottled up, always good to talk and get things off your chest, otherwise it builds up too much, glad you are feeling better, hope your therapist gets back soon, is there no other therapist that can help or fill in until he/she returns? Xxx
October 8, 201411 yr How is today looking, Evelyn ? Well, it is evening for you. Are The Pigs more active at night ?
October 18, 201411 yr And it hurts, I block when I'm alone so can't cry until someones on the phone with me or with me. I HATE it that my therapist is having an pulmonary ammonia this is the second week I can't go. I feel stuck.... this triggers 'my old habbit'. Screw cigarettes and my past... How's it going Ms. Evelyn? Holding strong, no doubt...lots of faith in you I have :)
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