June 20, 201412 yr So not sure how long it's been since I quit a couple of months i will have to check and I haven't been to bad but this week has just been a bloody nightmare I can't stop thinking about it. I have a question most people I speak to who have quit smoking say I knew that when I put out that last fag that was it. Err why have I never felt that? feeling shit and I know having a fag won't help but this empty Ness is getting to me I'm putting on weight which is depressing me as well :-(
June 20, 201412 yr Nothing going on Laura. The addiction is desperately trying to reignite. You are romancing the cigarette. It would do nothing but disappoint you. You have done it, You have quit. You are not going to start again. So stop thinking about it. Great job! Maybe a fitness and weight program is the next focus?
June 20, 201412 yr Laura, Not every ones quit is easy.....geez I smoked for 5 decades......my body went in total shock..... My emotions went through the roof.....but..... I promised myself what ever happened I wouldn't smoke..... I had to fight ......and fight I did...... Every time you crave and don't smoke you win a battle.....the battles will get less and less I promise..... I kept getting told it will get better....I hung on to this with white knuckles...... I can tell you now.....it really does,one day you'll wake up and love your quit and protect it with all you've got.... Be patient....believe in you.....it will come.... Hugs Doreen
June 20, 201412 yr Everything Stu said is true... You only think that you miss it - ask every single smoker who ever made the decision to relapse, and they will tell you - it did not help, it only made matters worse. You are a nonsmoker now, and therefore, do not smoke. Don't worry about that myth about 'knowing' it's the last one, or feel like you are missing out on something - I still had about 6 and a half packs that I intended to smoke when I quit. I never had that 'perfect' last cigarette, and I didn't need it, and you don't either.
June 20, 201412 yr You can't abstain from smoking, you must quit. Whether you were sure when you put out your last cigarette doesn't matter, you are quit now. Protecting your quit is what's important.
June 20, 201412 yr Author Thanks for your support as always I don't want a cigarette or miss it I just also don't like this feeling :-(
June 20, 201412 yr Go move around. Get winded doing something, run in circles, jump up and down till your panting then come back an tell us how you feel. Bet it's different than now. You will not enjoy smoking one either way but I will bet you won't want it after some exercise that really gets your breath. The adrenaline alone will feel good. Then your lungs will thank you for the work and not smoking. Your heart will beat heavy, but in a good way. Try it
June 20, 201412 yr I did not know my last cigarette was going to be my last one. I did not have a plan,still had 13 cigarettes left in my pack. My junkie brain kept telling me I had cheated myself. I would have smoked that last cigarette differently if I had known it was going to be my last cigarette ever. Maybe i should have one knowing it will be the last one. That will make it real.That would make it easier. The good people on these boards told me I was being foolish. I believed them and I don't feel like I need that last cigarette anymore :) I can't remember how long its been since I felt that way seems like forever. Hang on you will get there too :)
June 20, 201412 yr Taking up a new challenge, hobby or regime is good In the beginning so much Time and effort is put into the quit, new focuses are needed after a While Find something you really enjoy Laura and enjoy your new non smoking life
June 20, 201412 yr Author I do yoga every day of the week and I am so chilled when I first come out. not helping my weight prob though I don't know maybe just going through a rough week and blaming it on quitting smoking because that's what I would of reached out for before when I used to be stressed but I'm feeling a bit better now. I really appreciate the support :-) What's the difference between the England squad and a tbag? The tbag stays in the cup longer. Haha sorry bad joke but thought I would look on the bright side and try and be funny
June 20, 201412 yr Sometimes we look for the crash of thunder, the famous Unicorn farting a rainbow, filling our lives with a new and exciting light. Actually - all that happened in tiny little increments every minute that we stopped poisoning ourselves. It is important to recognise that you did it. YOU DID IT! Rejoice. Pat yourself on the back. Dance.
June 20, 201412 yr Well done Laura...... It will pass.... Don't worry about the weight.....that will come later....look what you are acheiving..... Don't know of you know this,my hubby spends 16 hours of every day on a oxygen tank....due to smoking...... You don't want to go there...... Hugs Doreen x
June 20, 201412 yr Author Doreensfree - I'm so sorry about your husband, and no I don't want that I already have bad asthma which I struggle with some days and have to use a steroid inhaler and my blue preventer. My son's mother in law has copd and I went to a party at her house last week for my grandaughters 1st birthday this is no lie the doctors let her out of hospital for 2 hours so she wouldn't miss it as she would of walked out anyway. She spent time on her nebulizer. everyone was smoking out the back and front, I only needed to see her and having a fag didn't interest me i was angry if anything so many people were smoking knowing she wasn't well including my son. I know i never want to smoke I just really don't like that feeling u get when u don't feel satisfied that why I think I'm turning to food xxx
June 20, 201412 yr If you get the munches ,try and snack on healthy stuff....carrots,apples,..ect..... Try reading a good book,I've read heaps ithsts last 10 months.....it's takes you to another place.....
June 20, 201412 yr It takes some time for your body to heal from all of the damage that smoking has done to it; even your brain is recovering the normal uptake of dopamine. Keep going Laura, whatever you don't like now will change for the better soon.
June 20, 201412 yr Hey Laura, just coming out the other side of this. It feels really meh, I don't know what to do here anymore and it's all old news I quit, but meh, what to do now... My advice. Just keep doing what you're doing and one day, apparently we come out the other side and realize we haven't thought about smoking for a day. Then longer then a day and all will be fabulous lol. Hugs Laura, this is us doing it. xx
June 20, 201412 yr Hi Laura keeping on hanging in, some really wonderful advice above and not much more to add except its just the demon junkie thinking trying to creep back in and tell us we are missing something, when we damn well know we are not as I said to my mum the other day "my logical side of my brain is saying you don't smoke any more but see the illogical side is manically laughing at me and telling me to just go on, have one it will be ok you know you want it," my mum calmly turned to me and said well Jackie tell the illogical side to f@@k off, and thats just what I did whilst laughing at my 73 year old prim and proper mammy
June 20, 201412 yr Author Thanks Jackie that made me giggle I will try that not time that nicotine demon comes to me xx thanks Marti i think we are already fab as we are not smoking lol xx
June 21, 201412 yr Eask every single smoker who ever made the decision to relapse, and they will tell you - it did not help, it only made matters worse. I can tell you firsthand that smoking after you've made a firm decision to quit sucks and it's disappointing. Right now you're thinking that smoking would make you feel better, that you miss it and even crave it. It's all a lie. Trust me, you would not enjoy smoking anymore. Think about it all you want but if you smoke, you're gonna regret as soon as you light it. I suggest that you start thinking about something else and stop those thoughts from growing and planting the seeds to relapse. You don't smoke so why would you even consider starting? :)
June 24, 201412 yr I did not know my last cigarette was going to be my last one. I did not have a plan,still had 13 cigarettes left in my pack. My junkie brain kept telling me I had cheated myself. I would have smoked that last cigarette differently if I had known it was going to be my last cigarette ever. Maybe i should have one knowing it will be the last one. That will make it real.That would make it easier. The good people on these boards told me I was being foolish. I believed them and I don't feel like I need that last cigarette anymore :) I can't remember how long its been since I felt that way seems like forever. Hang on you will get there too :) Oh my gosh! I had the same thing with the last cigarette, "had I only known". I toyed with the running out of cigarettes (sticking one toe in the water) but when the quit time came it just came with no super clear warning and I kinda had that feeling of gaving cheated myself out of having a nice goodbye. I am still struggling with cravings, but really - what exactly is that last goodbye? My friend of 33 years did nothing but destroy me, break relationhips, wreck my finances and cause me lots of grief. When I really look at it, the only good bye my Marlboro's deserved was a middle finger.
June 24, 201412 yr Oh my gosh! I had the same thing with the last cigarette, "had I only known". I toyed with the running out of cigarettes (sticking one toe in the water) but when the quit time came it just came with no super clear warning and I kinda had that feeling of gaving cheated myself out of having a nice goodbye. I am still struggling with cravings, but really - what exactly is that last goodbye? My friend of 33 years did nothing but destroy me, break relationhips, wreck my finances and cause me lots of grief. When I really look at it, the only good bye my Marlboro's deserved was a middle finger. Love this!!
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