Stewie

Thank you Linda. I had my fair bit of distress and anxiety but i find a way to manage it. Just the first 5 months of quitting smoking should have put my hair all grey xD

Im sorry Tammy, is there a way to delete these messages? I was really in great anxiety and angst. I should have not spammed your beautiful post. Maybe ask a moderator. Anyway, thank you.

Thank you pig.

This is my favorite.

And heres me now: https://imgur.com/a/IDrFnSi They look so different to me. I guess shit happens...

Heres a picture of me when i was happy: https://imgur.com/a/T8J1JHs You can see the look in the eyes, guess why... It has been so long since ive taken care of the garden.

Im feeling better. Im sorry for spamming your beautiful post, feel free do delete these messages later. Do you know my name besides David? Have you seen something about me on the web? im confused. i see evidence but also contradictions everwhere. I fear i should have to be hospitalized if the medication doesnt kick in

Do you know a woman name Robynne? Is this all in my head? Am i ill? Ive constructed a movie in my head and i dont know whats real anymore Im feeling suicidal again i wont do it though i need some ansiolithicas splease speak to me soon thank you

i was just in love and im kind of an idiot sometimes i think im a good person... someone talk to me

Tormented! what the hell is going on around me?? please i never meant to hurt anyone!! did i hurt anyone? did i injusticed or made something bad to anyone??

Dear R., I hope you come across this. It has been a long time. The time that flow slowly since the last time we met. The maturity of the years gave me some insight and perspective about how i might have not been the ideal person towards you. You have been in my mind for some time now, i regret being such an asshole towards you in the past. I am sorry about the way we ended things, i wish i could have been a friend to you. So I thought why not reach out and let you know that you are still dear to me. I have worried that I may have hurt you or made you sad so i just want to say that i wish you a life full of happiness. If my actions in the past hurt you, i am truly sorry. Feel free to reach out to me if you so desire, otherwise this is my swansong to you. Sorrow... Your friend, David

I like this song, it elevates my mood. (good vibe)

I see. Pretty good writting there Tammy. Thank you.

Well its 3:36am and ive read it two more times. I love it! Flows like a declaration of love and hate at the same time...VERY devilish, love it!

It broke my heart.

Its like two ships going into a storm on course to collide into each other. If both boats avoid the storm, everything will turn out for the better. Now when quitting smoking, prepare for some waves and agitation. Quitting smoking is sometimes chaotic. Lets look on the white side shall we? Quitting is possible. Your writing is pretty good, keep at it. Peace. :)

Yes its always good to be alive. I love being alive, its my favorite thing ever. You keep diminishing those gums and soon you will be totally free of nicotine. When do you plan to give up the nicotine for good? Peace

Very interesting writing. "Sometimes you gotta get dragged through the mud for the dirt to wash off." Can tottally relate. In fact that would make a cool tattoo :´´) Keep writing stuff, you have natural talent i can tell. Peace. :)

Guilty until proven innocent We condemn your soul and fate Never mind the possibilities Too busy for logic or to calculate Take part in a diminishing breed Where complex turns to simplicity When pain is acknowledged Frivolous calculations will be abolished Without judgement what would we do? We would be forced to look At ourselves emerged in lost time Assuming what may be without judgement Perception would increase a million times Distracted by imagination That experiments with ease if you could Taste it, it might be addictive Where life will crush those who defy Take part in a diminishing breed Where complex turns to simplicity When pain is acknowledged Frivolous calculations will be abolished Without judgement what would we do? We would be forced to look At ourselves emerged in lost time Assuming what may be without judgement Perception would increase a million times

Yeah i used a website to unreverse the text, jokes on you. ? I...i dont know the meaning behind that without context. "freight train coming your way"? What are you up to? You better be not thinking about doing something naughty! Must be the gums really. What dosage are you on? I think you should give up on the gums now...sorry im not trying to be an asshole but you´ve been feeding artificial nicotine for 9 days now. Let them go and endure a little discort. Then it gets better.

Well, ive missed you guys. Ive been running for 3 days now and my body is kinda getting into the natural movement of running, its starting to get easy. Today felt less demanding on my legs and lungs. I cant quite yet run 1 hour straight yet, i do 1 hour of 10 minutes of running and 2-5 minutes of walking depending on how hard my legs hurt. Its addictive as hell though, i can see myself be a runner for the rest of my life. And to think i used to be an obese, sedentarian smoker lol. Lets see if i can run every day of the month, thats an interesting challenge.

Got it! Oh lord theres a freight train coming my way. Oh please god nooooooo i wanna live. Im too young to die. I even havent had a divorce yet. Someones gonna pop a bullet in my brain isnt it? Oh shit... ? Nah i keed. You´re a strange lad. I like you though.

Good lord lad, write like a normal person. I feel like a bloody owl try to read that shit. I´ll try to figure it out because, honestly, im curious. You own me 10 bucks for the effort though.

Running is much more demanding than walking i find, it will be a while before i can do 1h straight. I shall endure though

This time i will try to be offline for a month, so see you guys in January i suppose. Or i might pop up once or twice to spank princess buttocks. Anyway Im off to get my head healthy away from these bloody screens. Ughhh