Hi Pilgrim - glad you are back.
I, too, was a serial quitter, so I can definitely relate.
My biggest suggestion is to come here and stay here. Everyone here understands exactly what you are going through. And everyone is so willing to pick you up when you are about to fall. I had folks stay with me on the SOS thread until I felt strong and confident. I was actually on a different message board that unfortunately crashed and burned and luckily the Quit Train welcomed me. So I can't go back and look at my old posts, but trust me, I was a mess!
Posting helps, the good, the bad. and the ugly.
My mantra was Smoking Is Not An Option...NO MATTER WHAT. It was a powerful tool for me. As was deep breathing. The strength is in you, keep pulling it up.
KTQ
(edit to say - your cat is beautiful!!!)