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So day 6 has arrived... Cant believe a week has nearly passed. I am a non smoker and i LOVE it!! Am also loving the fact that im not craving food as a substitute! I do feel slightly more agitated/restless, but im puttin that to good use with housework etc may the force be with me lol ;-) Happy NOPE day guys x

Getting my sleep pattern back on course finally (keeping my fingers crossed). I started this quit smoking way back in May, and just this past week got some good sleep. This sounds trivial compared to what some folks are going through, but I find it hard to cope each day without at least 5 hours of sleep. And finally it's coming around. Whoo hoo!

Not my style, not my way but I think I just done wallowed the last two weeks of my life away? Sad, unhappy, over thinking, questioning myself, my life, my parenting - but not my quit. I love that bit by the way, even when life feels like it utterly sucks balls for no apparent reason my quit is still in the "oh yeah, doin it" section. August was the most abhorent, scary emotional month I have seen in some time. I am utterly jaded but re grouping. I am brutalized I was too unwell to complete my healing module in the legitamate "insurance" world. FFS, I have been using my skills since before I knew what the skills were!! - and I can't practice in the real world due to insurance?! Why has my path gotta put so many road blocks in the way to make me always think I'm missing something I need to know. Meh, sucky stupid timings. So, phew. Ok, it's time to put my childish thoughts behind me. It's my birth month :) The time where I reset my year, my year by the way, i get the january the 1st thing but I think at your birthday, you should do a life review and set in motion your plans for your next year. SO .... By this time next year I want to have clients, who I can lay my (non smoking YEY) hands on and help. I need to start working on a "proper job" skill set and I still have no clue, but 7 days left. So if now, when my baby girl starts full time school (mortified). And my Mum is still utterly scared but possibly closet smoking again (div). And the world feels like it is testing me - if now - my quit is in safe hands.... then I'm going to assume that even though I have an occasional thought to smoke that I'm all good and not worry anymore. I love that I can pay it forward though, that's so fab! 11 days until 6 months quit!! Multiple quits inspired by mine!! New friends!! I don't know why I spent a month uneasy?? It's as great as it always was :) A blocked path is not a roadblock, it's an opportunity to know more. Stay focused. Quitting is a journey, not an event. Eternal vigilance. Addiction. All true, but look at the strength that surrounds this site, these people. This is a great time to be here and it feels amazing to pay it forward. I think I will be happy about it for a while. PS, I may have had a wine, thus promtping such happiness lol, but still, it's pretty cool being a small part of this place that saves people and heals them :) x

Yesterday was OK, no wasted paint but, no big progress EXCEPT just the 'doing' was easier. Y'all are so right....just slog through the week. Will do. Today more paint less computer. Thank you, Beautiful Creatures. Love you so much, S

Im so glad i found u guys too! And its alllll thabks to Marti!!! Cheers hun! And thanks to all u beautiful people to! This journey is actually quite fun lol

Way to put things in perspective Marti. It's a new day :)

Yay good roll over its my turn lmao Keep rocking hun xxx

Done Nancy and thank you...very nervous...no one has ever seen a poem I've written. xx

Marti, would you please consider posting that in Quit Smoking discussions so that everyone will be sure to see? It is wonderful!

sammie this is great :) well done hun x

I can't believe you are dieting lol, I was averaging 3 packets of chilli coated nuts at this stage...end up having to bloody wean off those in the end :) You are doing so great Sam, it's you doing it even if I just pestered you with quit train messages on day 1 lol. Really impressive to watch this. Your daughter must be super proud!!

Well done sammie.....

I so understand....I too went months with hardly any sleep... It's exhausting..... Glad to hear you are getting some rest...

Great to hear this - I agree with Sally, I hope you have sweet dreams (finally!)

you are a big part of this place ;)

So glad you found us Sam - you are doing just great!

I commiserate. Sweet dreams, Sandar.

It gets even better and your house gets cleaner just like your lungs ! Happy NOPE day to you too, Sammie. It is a pleasure to watch your quit.

Lol, you'll be a crazy reformed smoker too :) Go careful with the advice thing, it can alienate some people, best is to let people and let them ask you questions I found. x

Glad you're finding an outlet for the agitation/restlessness. You are doing great!

You know Marti, when I go for a wallow (as we all do sometimes), I make mine a doozy... Lots of mud and blood and plenty of pig calling, SOOOOO WEEEEEE ! HOY HOY HOY ! All my worst case scenarios are thrown in the swill. Fears Doubts all the yuck in the muck. Rolling around in it, for days, weeks...I don't care...until in the midst of good wallow hollering, I start laughing. A little snicker at first and soon the hysteria of full on belly laughs and It feels so good all of a sudden, all clean again. Nice cool mud. Love ya baby, S

Hahahaha past 2 nights ive had the most bizarre dreams lol just horrible lol but i dont care cos im stil wakin up feelin good and positive with a smile on my face. My friend sent me a text yesterday askin me how i was doin. I told her it was goin great and asked her if she was thinkin of quittin also. She said she wanted to but needed somethin to focus on. I told her, u do have something to focus on and its always been there, and that is YOU. Every puff u take ur a step closer to ill health and possibly dyin. Whilst each puff u move away from is ur life returnin to u! If u cant quit for urself then u wil never succeed!!