Hey sweetie, I saw you said you were struggling so... I wanted to remind you of this, and just how happy you and your daughters were that weekend, all because you stopped putting things in your mouth and setting the on fire!!

 

After 3 months of trying everything to keep that i had quit smoking a secret, this weekend was the big reveal to my girls...

 

They didn't get here till after 9 pm Fri, so we just got what was needed from the car and settled in for the night, got up Sat and headed out.. it's a short drive to Myrtle Beach from my house, about 2 1/2 hrs... we get there safe and sound, got to check in to see if the rooms ready or do we need to find something to do till it is (cuz we got there about 11a.m.).. Nope it's ready, i sign all the forms and the lady says "we hope you enjoy your stay, as a reminder we are 100% smoke free Resort," ..I could feel the tension from the girls immediately, ... all the happy - bubbly - silliness that had been the mood on the ride down was gone.. now they were stone faced and silent.

 

We head out to the car, the "bell hop" loads our bags, and we follow him up to the room... the girls are still silent, i'm trying so hard not to bust out laughing at this point while still keeping my mood all happy and excited like the ride down - which, by the way just set them off further because i wasn't "noticing" they were upset, (hehehe).

 

So the guy unloads our stuff i give him his tip, close the door behind him, turn and make a "bee-line" for the balcony and i hear "What are you doing Mom? we can't stay here,it's smoke free,yer gonna get us kicked out!!!!!"

 

I tossed my hands in the air, opened the balcony door and said " not a problem, i quit smoking 3 months ago, SURPRISE!" and stepped out on the balcony grin'n from ear to ear.

 

Of course they didn't believe me, they follow me out- OH how I wish you could have seen their face's, LOL!!

 

 

I said, "did i smoke when you got in last night? did i go out to smoke before we went to bed? did i smoke when when stopped to stretch our leggs?.. ( the whole time grin'n so big my face was start'n to hurt).. go look in my bags - there no ciggs, I'm tell'n you - I quit!"

 

OMG, did they turn on a dime!! :P

 

Took EVERYTHING out of my bags as they're talk'n about how embarrassing it's gonna be to get kicked out cuz of my smoking..

 

then they see there's no ciggs... and I watched their face's change as it sinks in that I've quit...

 

and then the tears started, and the hugs.. and more tears.. and smiles, hugs,tears...

 

BEST FREAK'N SURPRISE EVER!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Big hugs (((lace)))

Here for you lace with hugs frosting and big boots if needed xxxx

Lace, I know what it feels like to struggle, but you got this sweetie!  You can get through those struggles with strength and perseverence.  If you need us, we are here for you.

 

Thanks Action Tracey Nay Nay...{hugs}

 

yep that day with my girls was one of the best day's i've ever had... but the truth is i'm hang'n on by the skin of my teeth over here...i'm just soooooooooo tired of fighting both addictions..... i just want a break.. just for a while from at least one.... in my heart i know there's no such thing....i'm just really get'n tired....hang'n on minute to minute at times... it's get'n old..

 

i know have'n a pit party never helped anyone, and i'm try'n to find fun and funny's where i can... it's just, don't know how else to explain it.. i'm just tried of fighting on two fronts.

Thanks Action Tracey Nay Nay...{hugs}

 

yep that day with my girls was one of the best day's i've ever had... but the truth is i'm hang'n on by the skin of my teeth over here...i'm just soooooooooo tired of fighting both addictions..... i just want a break.. just for a while from at least one.... in my heart i know there's no such thing....i'm just really get'n tired....hang'n on minute to minute at times... it's get'n old..

 

i know have'n a pit party never helped anyone, and i'm try'n to find fun and funny's where i can... it's just, don't know how else to explain it.. i'm just tried of fighting on two fronts.

You have been so strong, for so long. If you have to hang on for a while, then that's what you've got to do. Sometimes, you've got to fake it until you make it... We are all here for you - we are your internet family, and we all want to see you succeed... We love you lace, be strong!!

Lace...

 

Keep posting sweetheart. Let it out.

 

Its Okay to have a crappy time. It happens. You and your family are getting some crappy breaks right now - and I have no doubt that things would be much worse if the fantastic matriarch of the family had not cleaned up her act; surprising and delighting her daughters - the very same daughters who are right now thinking - "I can achieve anything - you should see what My Mom has achieved in the last 15 months"

 

Smile Lace. You got this. We are all with you.

Thanks you guys, love you too... 

 

(I'm smile'n - see me?)

 

almost time to feed the 4 legged kids and call it a day...and hit the ground run'n hard tomorrow...(fake till I make it)

 

one good thing from today,(aside from all the love and support).. all this crying i've done, i should sleep good tonight :)

lace,

 

I am crying more at the quit trainthen I have done in my life nowadays.

 

But your story - resonates- my mama's quit - better then mine!!!!!

 

Message if you need to, I will hold you and Jackie up.

 

Be strong my beauty, thoughts are just thoughts.

 

xx

Lace stay strong, I know its hard and I know the struggle, but we cannot allow ourselves to go backwards, we have to more onwards and upwards, keep reminding yourself of how well and how far you have come, we are all in this together, hold on tight, we got you xx

Lace - so sorry you are struggling - I hope your morning finds you feeling better but remember we are here for support if you need it :-)

Lace I find that sometimes just having a good cry helps. So long as you are not at your desk at work, which is where I am seem to be bawling.

I always tell myself 'this too shall pass' and it always does.

Aw thanks y'all.. {hugs}  

 

yep had a good cry - that cleaned the sawdust out of my head..  feel'n a bit rejuvenated  today..just have to remember to not keep things to myself... after all thats why i'm here right?..... to get help stay'n quit.... :rolleyes:

hang on just a little longer lace   it will be so worth it lean on us that's what we are here for    your doing great     (((((((((lace))))))))) 1 day 1 thing at a time   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Aw thanks y'all.. {hugs}  

 

yep had a good cry - that cleaned the sawdust out of my head..  feel'n a bit rejuvenated  today..just have to remember to not keep things to myself... after all thats why i'm here right?..... to get help stay'n quit.... :rolleyes:

That's the spirit!!

 

So happy to hear this!!!

Lace ,sweetie....look how far you have come....amazin.....

When you get days like this....come here and read all the fun stuff.....look at the cats and dogs....

They are so funny....before you know it....your mood has lifted.....

If that failed....I used to punch a pillow....not a gentle punch.....a cracking great bunch of fives.....

It will,pass I promise....

Stay strong....

I used to punch a pillow....not a gentle punch.....a cracking great bunch of fives.....

 

don't mess with Doreen :bb:  :training1:

don't mess with Doreen :bb:  :training1:

I know right...

she did say it's the quiet ones to watch for....

Lace, I'm not sure what tomorrow entails at times. But I do know I have control over today. Just one day at a time. The fight does get exhausting, I know it does. So sometimes I just quit fighting and surrender to it. I tell myself.....ok, I would like to smoke. But this time, I'm not going to smoke. I'm not gonna do it today. And then I try to find something healthy to do.....even if it's just eating a banana.

 

It will get easier. I promise. You just gotta have faith and believe.

 

I hope your feeling better today. Please stick close to us today. We don't want you straying off into wonderland....... Wonderland isn't the best place to be when one's feeling weak.

Hang in there, lace!!!  You don't want to have to go back to the basement and start over!!  Remember this is you talking to you:

 

If  "God don't give us more then we can handle"  then it must mean that He thinks you're one BIG BAD ASS when it comes to fighting addiction(s)... and who are you to say He is wrong???????

 

So.........be the bad ass He thinks you are,....... and DON'T smoke....

Ooooh now I see....not only are  Doreens true colors show'n..

 

I mean, I knew I had to watch out for our Pip, (wouldn't want her use'n me as a practices punch'n bag for her kick boxing,   :vava: ouch )

 

... now i have sweet- :angel: lovely Doreen to worry about, (who knew?) :scratch_one-s_head:

 

Tracey  threatening to "put boot" to my backside. :cray: .

 

and then.. THEN, sweet -gentle - always ready to offer a helping hand,      -Nancy-   is gonna send me back to the dreaded "Basement".....really?.. the " Basement " :o  :girl_impossible: .....

 

WOW!!!, talk about "Tough Love".... LOL!! .. ..

 

lov  "U" guys too  Thanks!! {hugs} :D

Ooooh now I see....not only are  Doreens true colors show'n..

 

I mean, I knew I had to watch out for our Pip, (wouldn't want her use'n me as a practices punch'n bag for her kick boxing,   :vava: ouch )

 

... now i have sweet- :angel: lovely Doreen to worry about, (who knew?) :scratch_one-s_head:

 

Tracey  threatening to "put boot" to my backside. :cray: .

 

and then.. THEN, sweet -gentle - always ready to offer a helping hand,      -Nancy-   is gonna send me back to the dreaded "Basement".....really?.. the " Basement " :o  :girl_impossible: .....

 

WOW!!!, talk about "Tough Love".... LOL!! .. ..

 

lov  "U" guys too  Thanks!! {hugs} :D

L.ol......Nancy and I must have ate something.....don't mess with us.....

Lace hope you are doing better - cos I don't know if the board can handle this - I mean I you have already woken the bad in Doreen and Nancy - what next mean Marti and assault action??

 

Ps - A lace punching bag isn't that effective - so that is definitely a last resort !

 

Love ya sweetie xx

You are healing Lace. Tell yourself that you have done years of damage, but now you are on the mend. You are getting better, just give it some time. It's a wonderful thing and I mean wonderful in the sense that you wouldn't have believed it until you felt it yourself.

Lace hope you are doing better - cos I don't know if the board can handle this - I mean I you have already woken the bad in Doreen and Nancy - what next mean Marti and assault action??

 

Ps - A lace punching bag isn't that effective - so that is definitely a last resort !

 

Love ya sweetie xx

Wow, what'd I do??  Me like this  :angry:   nah, not from me. I love you guys too much  :wub:

I mean I you have already woken the bad in Doreen :aggressive: and Nancy :mafia: - what next mean Marti :girl_hospital: and assault action :hunter: ??