Hi Rob, great to see you posting and to see the honesty, Ive relapsed twice in the last year, and do you know why I relapsed, because I romanced the cigarette or rather the nicotine flirted with me and I took the bait, and flirted back, I played with danger thinking that I was stronger, you say you are only in this quit this time half heartedly, I know exactly how you feel Rob, its too much effort and when will all this suffering be over and why can't I wake up tommorow and have no craves, well I am sorry to say its not that easy sweetheart, just stop for a minute, sit quietly and be really really open with yourself, now tell yourself that you inflicted all this on you, when smoking you were killing yourself, if thats what you want to do why not go jump off a cliff right now, sorry if this is hard but its what I told myself, I told myself I do not want to die a smoker, take back control of you life Rob you can do it and you know you can, quitting is horrible but the addiction is so so much worse, it only hurts for a little while, and I and I think everyone here on the board thinks your are worth so much more, don't give in Rob be stronger, each second that you remain committed to NOPE is one second towards a better healthier you. xxx