PeaceTrain

Amen to what Doreen said. I can remember not too long ago, the intermittent panic feelings that would rise up,when I would suddenly remember that I had quit smoking and I'd think, "WHAT?!? What did I do THAT for?!?" The idea that I would never smoke again was almost enough to send me right back into the arms of the addiction. I started to catch myself when I'd have thoughts like that and force myself to think of something else. Anything! Locating all the red objects in the room, then the brown ones, then the yellow ones, then the green ones,... You get the idea- Just break that cycle of thought. Eventually, I've noticed over the last few months that the thought of never smoking again feels just fine. What I've been saying to myself lately is, "I'm just done with it,". What this means to me is, yes, it was something I used to do and now I don't want to do it anymore and I'm more than fine with that.

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How in the name of God did you ever stand outside to smoke in those ridiculous temperatures? Dumb question, I know, but the further away you get from the throes of addiction, the more you see how completely fckud up you were...

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A relaxing cigarette? What I've finally learned is the only thing cigarettes "relax" are symptoms of withdrawal from nicotine. You can probably remember being relaxed when you took that first drag of a cigarette, especially after you'd been wanting one for a while. Ahhhh, what a relief! A relief to quell the edginess of withdrawal, that is. That's REALLY all it was. The only way you'll be free of having those cravings for relief is to never ever feed that insidious addiction again- that and really understanding how this addiction works. Sounds like you're getting something out of being a complete asshole, otherwise why would you say "I can?" This makes me wonder if you're feeding a negativity in the same way as feeding thoughts of loss about smoking in the form of thinking about how relaxing it was. Please understand... These are not criticisms! I hear that you're having a hard time and I feel for you. Parts of this are relevant to me also this last week, so I'm saying it for both of us. Kindness and understanding toward yourself goes a long way. I'm going to try to replace some of my self-defeating thoughts with ones that build me up as well as focus on the positives of people around me. As adults, we are the sole cultivators of our internal landscapes. If none of this resonates, don't give it another thought- just keep it parked here.

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Packing, unpacking, moving boxes around, walked about 7 miles and up/down 23 floors yesterday with the office move and all that entails after 45-minute kickboxing workout in the morning. Today, the move continues. 4.7 miles walked plus 13 floors. Tomorrow, I'm getting a massage

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Congratulations JKPK! Let this be the first month of all the rest of your life as a happy non-smoker. KTQ!!!

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Sheesh I'm so late but NOPE all day and night

I feel like I've said this before... NOPE!

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neg fore

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Moving office this week and lots of physical and emotional upheaval (long story). Elliptical 30 minutes this morning after only walking and packing for move Tuesday and Wednesday

NOPE!!!

This a wonderful testimonial to the "not necessarily easy but definitely doable" nature of quitting smoking. I foresee that you will get a lot out of looking back at this post one day. KTQ! You're doing an absolutely great job!

-3. Sorry chickies... I was SO outnumbered and also busy when those sticks came crashing through here.

15 ...yikes

omg how did this happen? 9

Have a fantastic Tyme!!!

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