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I have read about the acronym, H A L T, in recovery paraphernalia and have used it to a great degree of success in changing my patterns from a nicotine addict to a Free person. Having a Crave ? H. A. L. T. Are you Hungry - Thirsty - need a deep breath of Oxygen ? Angry - Happy - Emotional ? Lonesome - Bored ? Tired ? In many, many instances, when I would reach for a smoke, my poor body was actually trying to alert me that it needed attention in some way. My addiction silenced these natural signals. I still catch myself these days...no, it is no longer a crave, it is my body hollering for water or food or something it really needs ! Now, groovin' in my new freedom, when these signals come up, my first thought may still be, 'Oh cigarette, dammit' However, it is followed immediately by, 'No, not smokes...you're Hungry, baby !' or, you're thirsty or, you need to go sit outside and take a big gulp of oxygen and figure out what your body or spirit requires. The piracy that nicotine practiced is still mind-boggling to me. Allowing nicotine to take over my basic human needs of sustenance and comfort was a grave error on my part. I am grateful my body is so forgiving . I am grateful to be free. Free and learning how to read my body's signals and remembering how to take good care of it. So, next time you have what you assume to be a Nic fit, have a think...what is your body really telling you ? It won't be hard to figure out. For me it has been obvious and I have to wonder, how could I have neglected my body for so long ? It is a miracle it survived. I would like to include our friend, Joel Spitzers' Do You Want A Cigarette....H.A.L.T.

This has been a tough week. It's tuesday! That probably says a lot. And my weird will be in this blog, if it offends please see "ra ra" type posts in the main arena! I don't understand why I think of smoking when things become tricky. Although it has been my "go to" for my whole adult life, I started to smoke at 13. I had my first at age 9 - the age my oldest daughter is now!! She's a baby!! I can't believe no one noticed me, and yet if you met those I "care for" you'd understand the self obsession that meant they missed any potential signs for me. I must remember now I think to ensure I am seperate, and really try not to let these people invade my "better place" space. Today I faced down for the first time people judging those who are spiritual. Apparently we are all flower power hippies with no life plan lol. Wow! At the "what do you do" question I squared my shoulders and said I'm a hippy...in leggins...who channels stuff like healing...I think your nurse training is awesome...I just signed up to reiki cancer patients for an hour a week and help them through a gift I was given...and I wear crystals and heal with them cause I'm moved to do that. I just want to make lives better and I love that I'm given that opportunity all the time! Cue tumbleweed!! I wish I was that spiritual person who didn't think, wow, you're a bit of a twat aren't you and really did wear loose fitting clothing cause that would of been handy with the extra quit weight I claimed via peanuts!! And then I really started to think later. There was a time, almost months ago that I would have said nothing! I wouldn't have defended myself and my life choices even though I considered myself a really strong woman. It reminded me what my quit has given me in the self worth camp and despite a bitchin couple of days I am happier in myself now then I have ever been. I can attribute a great part of that to here and a freedom to just "be me unjudged" and a strength in fighting addiction and being victorious. Yes, I "just know" I am done. I won't consider smoking anymore, SNOT, no longer an option! I can't heal if I stink, end of story. But jeez, I wonder why the thoughts still come and if they will ever end although I offer up eternal gratitude at the fleeting nature compared to the early quit thoughts which were so intense they owned me! I read of symptoms of the quit, so many I wasn't sure they were even all quit related until now really, wow, I abused my poor body in an epic manner!! So for me. For all behind and in front of me. I know now. Smoking really never fixed a thing. I will help whomever I can and I will be greatful for a place that accepted me for who I was, warts an all. (really no warts, cross fingers and all that). Forgive the inane ramblings but it is my blog and it helps to write all the crazy down sometimes! And not smoke, that helped me too. Wednesday will be better is all. Loves to all.

Just a bad day, not a bad life. My "go to" saying when things feel hard. Thank you for the thoughts. x

You are a special and beautiful being, Marti, and I appreciate you very much. Thank you for quitting smoking. Love, S

I still think of it too when I get pissed... but... as you saw on fb I came in close contact with a smoker yesterday. She stunk and I mean freakin' stunk. Every she coughed you heard that rattle, holy sh*t it was just horrible. It was such a turnoff and I feel awful that it once was me who stunk that way but couldn't smell myself. Screw what judgmental people think, they are no better than you, and you shouldn't be made to feel bad about your life choices.

A brilliant post Sally.... As a smoker I ignored my poor body totally..... Mostly smoking,not eating right,not sleeping right... This is a great reminder to be kind to yourself..... Thank you...

Wonderful!

Thanks Sally... Really helpful, for everyone ;)

Great Post and Reminder. I esp. like you saying," my poor body was actually trying to alert me that it needed attention in some way." Great way to realize the body is/was asking for something other than the rapacious creditor, Nicotine.

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I was just thinking about this, Jules. Thinking about what I know and keep private. What I Know Now about myself nearing a year Free from Nicotine. I know I have the ability to Change. I know have the ability to commit to something for success. I know I have the ability to face fears. These, I mostly keep to myself but, they give me a sort of Glow. I know from a warm good feeling about myself inside and from a clarity in my eye. I did not back down. I will not back down. Like our Sarah says, "I am a Tiger ! RARRRR!

Pfft, what does your friend know about addiction... Well, I'M proud you of, Jules ;) you are ROCKING it :d Happy for you :)

Throw away the smokes and quit again, you can drink alot of water and fruit juice. Take a walk. You can feel better by tommorow