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WHAT THE **** **** is my problem I feel so weepy for absolutely no reason today....everything I read or see today is making me cry I feel like totally losing control and crying why I have no real reason to cry no added crazy stress just the normal day to day stress but **** **** my emotions are loony today sigh I should be happy hubs went to go pick up my new wedding set right now but everything I read I am tearing up gotta make sure I am not watching something sad because that might send me over the edge. Probably peri-menopause to go along with my mini hot flashes (I have had an hysterectomy still have ovaries) sigh this shit needs to go

AWESOME!!! Congrats :) awesome

Way to go!!! Congrats :)

COngrats!!!!!

https://www.facebook.com/video.php?v=10150117648442761 I dont know how to post the video directly to here from Facebook but this is a cool clip from 1906 interesting to see the randomness of the people walking, driving and riding on the horse drawn carriages.

I have a cousin-in-law that was murdered by her abusive husband (they were divorcing and that is the most dangerous time in an abusive relationship) So I have a very low tolerance for people who abuse others it is inexcusable. You should be proud and stand tall for losing the loser BF and to quit smokes on top of that is awesome!!!!! {{{{{SARAH}}}}}

I dont use it dont like how it feels on my lips

Thanks guys I know I dont post too much just here and there but I do always lurk and read......it becomes much easier as time goes by :)

nope keeping my flip flops and my hygiene is impeccably clean :P lol

quite honestly its more entertaining to see what bakon comes up with lol

Cody he is 5 1/2 months

4 beers and a fire ima happy :) lol

Third beer later :) ITS all good

I will try to post pic from puter when i get a chance

Lol having a beer right now laughing

hey shooting a gun at the range is better than smoking right lol ;)

I am gonna have a fire and a couple of beers :) it is cold out ....it looks like it is going to be another long winter because the cold is here just waiting on the snow which we will probably get by October sigh I wish I could hibernate until spring maybe we will actually have a spring next year lol

Maybe tomorrow i will talk hubs into going to the gun range and try to shoot his 357 maybe :)

As far as horney smells um just a nice smelling man nothing so overpowering though that it makes your eyes water

I do want to go camping but dont have the time i would also like a fire but wood is wet might still try though

For some reason I am thinking about missing smoking or what it would be like to have one (back the trucks up I am NOT going to smoke at all) I do not know why at this point it is popping into my head but it is. Of course I breath it away and they are just passing thoughts but it is what it is. I was on my walk with Cody and I saw someone at a campsite with a cig and I remembered camping and smoking (dont know why) I know better but I am still troubled by some of these thoughts because it reminds me how easy it would be to just start again. I know though that I would not enjoy it as I "used to enjoy it" and I would feel horrible and it of course would be stupid. I am just ramblin now........Part of the reason I know that I will never smoke is because I choose not to.......I am in control of my fate and life.......I am too much of a type A personality to release control over my life anymore to an addiction. lol If you listened to me ramble on thanks.......Just getting the crazy thoughts out of my head :)

I walk cody for about an hour and a half or 4.5 miles that takes some of the hyper outta him. in fact hes sleeping right now sweet peace :yahoo: :dance3: :dance3: :dance3:

Su if you need help with depression you should seek it, You deserve to be happy and if you are struggling with depression it is important that you seek the help you so deserve. Take care of your whole being mind and body. It is ok to seek help It does not make you "weak" it makes you aware of your needs and putting your needs where they should be top priority! {{{{hugs}}}}

I ran 6.55 miles today.....I was thinking about the difference in my running from last year to this year I ran faster last year not a lot faster but a 9/10 minute mile this year I am running 11/12 minute mile BUT last year I stopped every mile to "catch my breath" and only ran 3/4 miles on average. This year I run 6.5 miles on average and I run for 3 miles before I stop to pee/take a breath etc..... then I run the rest of the way with the exception of the last 0,5 mile where I walk/run the last bit home......maybe I am being to hard on myself I am going further and being more consistent but am slower I dont know I would think that is better?