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W5d1

W4d3. 1/4 done with 10 k app

Way to go friend.

Thank you everyone. Happy I made it to six months. Always envied people at six months for some reason.

eh aside from wanting to run better a side effect of "having to clear my throat CONSTANTLY" was a factor in me not wanting to do it anymore. it was embarrassing to me. <3

I kind of understand what you are saying. But not really. I know recently after the doctor news on monday I though "fu** a cigarette...that sounds good" and I watched someone light up....and then I realized there was nothing there for me. It stank. sure...they seemed to be having a good time. But I could see through it....I used to look like I wasnt miserable.. I used to look pleasant and like I was having a good time while smoking. You would have been able to tell nothing else other than I was having a good f***** time. And that is the trick it plays and now I can see through it. Does she look miserable? Did I? Absolutely not. because she is...and I was... telling herself lies while she smokes that cigarette. It offers nothing and we know that. miss it? I don't know that I would say that. If I thought it would help me enjoy or fix anything at all I would pick one up right now. But i know that it would not.

yesterday - w4d2

Bye :( I'm keeping the ice cream truck though. Sadness

Thanks guys

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I wish this wasn't easier said than done: “Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.” ― Benjamin Franklin It's more like this: “Don't worry. Worry is useless. I worried anyway” ― John Green

Well they are worried enough to skip the come back in six month thing and go right to biopsy. Throwing the cancer around like that's a possibility so I'm frightened.

way to go!!! You are so awesome Jen!! :)

Thank you all for the kind words. I appreciate it.

kind of along the lines everyone else says about not smoking for the day. when i decided I was going to quit my uncle told me hadn't smoked in probably 10 or more years. I of course was scared about how hard it might be since Id never tried before. He told me when he quit he decided to say he was postponing his next cigarette... and had been postponing it since I think he I said 1999... so maybe for that 10 years now. I thought it was an interesting way to look at it... since we always have a choice to smoke. he said it got him through the beginning knowing he was postponing it... and he still sees it that way.