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@Kris I know you want to be the person you were. I would like to be the person I once was but he doesn't exist anymore. All that's left is this old man and no amount of cigarettes will ever bring that kid back. That's a big part of smoking. You see, when we smoke we aren't the old people we are now...no...we think we become the kid when we had our first one. But the reality is that if we accept that we NOT the cool kid because we smoke then it's much easier to not smoke. I'm still working on this but it takes time for the brain to rewire. I have found that there are a lot of other physiological functions that got hijacked by smoking that need to repair, hence the diet change and really paying attention to what my body is telling me. When all is said and done the hardest part about quitting this addiction is that nobody can do it for us. Not even for a few minutes. We have to fight this battle for ourselves. And it's the hardest grind ever. Even on the front lines of a war the enemy has to stop firing to reload which gives you a brief moment of rest, but this enemy never seems to run out of ammo. It never has to change barrels. But it does get weaker, or we get stronger or both and it's bullets have less and less impact on us. Anyway, stay strong. You will get your life back. You will make that transition from ex smoker to non smoker and so will I. I see you reaching out to everyone and letting your light shine and it's a wonderful thing to see. Don't let that light go out.

@Kris I'm done with doctors. I'm sure there are some good ones out there but I'm getting to old to sift through them to try to find one that with some common sense. The last time I went to a doctor she wouldn't see me any more because I wouldn't take the cholesterol medication she prescribed because the side effects was everything that sent me to see a doctor in the first place. And I'm not sure that cholesterol level of 138 is unrealistically high.

@Kris Thank you for the encouragement. Honestly, if it wasn't for the digestive issues I had brought on by the quit I wouldn't be worried about the diet. I would love to eat vegetables and the occasional dessert unfortunately something is causing me a real problem so the diet is really to just eliminate everything except beef until everything has a chance to heal then try different things and see how I react. I'm hoping that one day I'll be able to eat potatoes again and maybe some ice cream. For now though, the diet seems to be starting to accomplish the mission but I will have to be pretty dang strict about it.

Where else would their balls be?

Almost thru day 10 eating carnivore. The positives the negatives and the cheats. First the cheats, News Years eve I just didn't feel like cooking so I wound up eating pizza. I did pay for that the next day but I never expected I'd do this perfectly and don't intend to punish myself over it. I also am still drinking coffee. A medium Dunkin Donuts black coffee in the mornings. I think most of my negatives are coming from the coffee. There are mycotoxins on the coffee beans, much like peanuts that are impossible to completely cleanse. As much as I hate it I'm going to have to completely ditch the coffee as well. The negatives. Still get mild bloating from time to time. I got this ringing in my ears but I think it's not new, it's just that I'm more aware of it now. Still have cravings for coffee and cigarettes but the sugar cravings seem to be less assuming I can tell the difference between them. The positives. The headaches are all but gone. Sleep is slowly beginning to get more consistent. Joints are feeling better and the neuromas in the balls of my feet haven't given my any pain since the day after new years. I was also able to do a few push ups today without it feeling like I was being stabbed in my shoulder so hopefully in a few weeks i can start working out with a little aggression. My morning weigh in was 189.4. That's 10 lbs lost since 12/26. I'll take that. Next step...gotta give up the coffee. I'll meditate on that for a day or two and pick a day to end it. Maybe Friday...I don't know though. All in all I'm really happy with the results I'm getting so far.

Wait...peanuts have legs??

power outages Why are only brown cows asked how now?

Congrats @Martian5. Hope you reward yourself good today. 4 years is a great quit

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Great news @Cweb123 4 days is a great start. Keep going.

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Columbia

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@Cweb1233 days is an awesome start. Staying connected with people, even if they are random and on the internet is a big part of a successful quit. Good for you making the decision to quit

@d2e8b8that's awesome. I still haven't been able to fast since I gave my cigarette crutch. Soon though I'll be able to join you on one.

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they live below a$$holes. why?

stoke

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