Kris

I am a Nope but I am worried about MLMR, she has restarted her quit and needs extra to support. Please reach out and help.

I am fine, no problem but MLMR is restarting the quit and needs support. If you can please send good thoughts that would be great. K

You have started and completed the first day. Day 2, you are letting your mind think you will fail. That is why sometimes I do not listen to my brain, I still feel the draw, the desire everyday. It is enough to make you crazy. You have done this hard part before and you can do it again. You have to have faith and love for yourself. You are the person that will save you on this one. You will have lots of support here, you can do this one day at a time. You know you can and we know it too!

I am on the couch, with the two little dogs, the big boy on the floor at my feet. We had pancakes for dinner, mine with butter and syrup, the pups shared one plain, as a treat. Watching PBS Grantchester. Now watching Sister Wives, I am not going there with my opinions. In the big picture that does not matter. Sometimes it is better to stay silent and leave it alone. If more people would do this the violence in America would stop. I do not care what color you are, your sexual preference, what your religion is, what gender you are or what you eat for breakfast. It is not my or anyone elses business. If you get up everyday, go to work, take care of yourself and family you will never have a problem you can't overcome. I am sick of people that think they have the right to judge other people. Let's face it folks, people looked down on us because we were smokers. That is not fair. We have to stand up and oppose any form of discrimination, if we do not we are hypocrites. I do not want anyone to feel less than. K

I am going to take this a different way. Sitting here on the couch with back door open five feet away. The cool air drifting in, two of the pups here on the couch with me and the big boy laying on the patio enjoying the cool night. Keeping his home safe and without worry. I wanted to go off to a pity party, we all tend go to the bad sometimes. I am not thinking of smoking. Just missing the crazy activity that this house has seen. A house full of little boys, and the next day (or so it seemed) a house full of teenage boys that were always hungry. The yelling and laughter as they played the latest video games. Making pallets on the floor for those that wanted to stay the night. Making pancakes, bacon and eggs for them in the morning. They drank so much milk we should have bought a dairy cow. They may not remember but I will. I still get to see most of them, all grown up, most are married with young children of their own. There is one who still calls me Mom. Then I realized I am not alone, you all are here with just a few clicks of a button. Is that not a miracle, a blessing that none of us have to go through this challenge alone. I am so grateful, thankful to all of you. You wait and listen for me if I struggle. You give comfort, advice, make me laugh, share your hardships and your joy. I am truly thankful for all of you. K

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@Opah I can only guess you are having issues going. If that is the case and it has been happening for a length of time, you might want to check with the doc. Our bodies all work differently. You should not try to be in control, your body will do what is needed when it needs to. I do not know you,your age etc...but if you have not it may be time for a colonoscopy. People seem to think that is a bad thing. The procedure is easy, it is the prep that I find the worst part. K

Well I am glad, I would have to fly to the UK and have fo have a tangle. i had enough of that when we were in high school. I was always the winner from age fifteen to fifty one.

Jesus I have been in jail for so long and did not know. The major thing in my life was the same, did I have enough cigs to get thru the day. I need to stop on the way home to get a carton, not a pack but a carton. When can I sneak away and have a smoke. Why is my habit worse than others that drink to much. eat to much. I finally have realized I do all those things and it is not acceptable. This just brings a whole lot of issues I need to deal with and I am not happry about it. Things are going to get alot harder but I will tackle it a step at a time.that is all I can do, admit the problem and try to do better.

Just found this thread. I am in charge. May not like it but I have go do it. I have to be in charge but there are days when I want to say take care of that, I am going to take a nap. It is kind of funny I found this, I have been having trouble with my middle child (dog). He thinks he is entitled to get food aggresive behavior and throws a fit, I mean ugly with teeth out and barking and going at the 80# chow who does not respond. It is not acceptable, so I grab him and put my hand around his mouth an I tell him I am in charge, I put his food bowl up on the table. He is learning he can't have his bowl until he stops. I yell at him in my meanest voice that I am in charge and he stops. Am I doing the right thing? I know you are you are talking about my quit and I am in charge of that but to to take care of that I have to be in charge of all areas of my life. K

@Mac#23 that is a nice thought, but I must admit that watching these minions time after time has lessoned my love. Did you ever have to watch Barney the purple dinosuar everyday multiple times day afrer day week after week month after month. Le's not talk about the Power Rangers or the Ninja Turtles. I have served my time. Well you get it, I love you, you love me were a happy family. I am sending you the tape and you can play it to get the full picture. No wonder I was driven to smoke! Thanks goodness my grandson is now eight and can watch other thiings that don't drive me crazy. Now we can curl up with the pups on the sofa and pick somethimg we both will enjoy.. K 2

Right now I am counting my blessings. I do not know if I will be here on Thanksgiving. All of us know that life is precious and there are no guarantees. I never knew I would lose my husband at such an early age but I also knew from an early age that bad things happen. My father passed at the age of 36 of a heart attack brought on by a medication that was given to him by a doctor. Any of us could leave this world tonight in our sleep, I am okay with that. There are many young people on this board. I am not okay with them putting their lives in danger if they continue to smoke. We must focus on them, to tell them what could happen to them and their families if they fail. There is no doubt that it will have a profound effect on their spouse and their children. I think when we are young we don't think about the damage we are doing that will deny our family of what they deserve. They need to be healthy to play with their children, playing soccer, football, baseball, dancing, gymnastics, being on the swim team, being a diver, playing an instrument in a marching band. Showing them all the things they can accomplish. My husband and I were lucky, bad things did not start to happen until our son was a junior in high school. He had already been involved in so many sports and had been successful. I thought it would be me who got sick, but it was his Dad. So there we were, a smart successful kid who had worked hard for good grades, excelled in sports, learned to play trumpet and a second language. His world was torn apart when we finally had to tell him what was wrong. There was no hiding it, as his Dad had to start treatment. It fell on me to tell him there was no cure, that we would lose his Dad at some point. To this day, I can't remember the conversation. I don't want anyone to have that talk with their children. So that is my truth, my life that was wonderful until that point. The sad part is I could not stop smoking, even though my husband was going to die from skin cancer. We were only 46 years old. This is cautionary tale for young members. It can happen, it does happen, keep your quit, you have people that love and depend on you. Do not throw it away!!

@Linda How is your family doing? Has everyone been getting better? @Doreensfree Have seen reports that the virus is on the rise. Are you doing okay, have there been any restrictions? K

The sad part of this memory is that I can remember Howard climbing the fence and have no memory of Evil's jump. I just remember my Stepdad laughing at the fence climb.

@Boo give Pumpy ( Sugar Britches gave him a hat) and beard. Go to the thrift store and buy him an ugly christmas sweater. Put some fake wrapped presents at his feet, candy canes in his hands and change his name to Crumpy, the christmas scarecrow. Tell little Miss Boo he is Santa's friend waiting to see him. K

There in lies the problem. We all have to say that everyday, at least I do. I say that everyday and I am tired of it. Do I have problems, yes, but I can only be responsible for me. I can't fix everything for anyone if I don't fix my own first. Right now, the goal is my quit, have I gained weight, you bet. Do I feel bloated and tired. Also true, but the most important thing is to quit smoking. That is my biggest health issue. I do feel physically better, I can breath which means I will be able to be more active, that will help the weight issue. You need to appreciate what you are doing for your self. Remain committed to the goal. I am 5 months in and the hand to mouth thing is passing and the weight is slowly going down. Now that the weather is cooler, I will start taking small walks. Keep in mind that I am still recovering from a hip replacement. You are doing great, even if you don't feel great right now. It will get better the more time that passes. I have found that to be true but I did not believe it at the beginning. Everyday does make a difference, keep going!!

Okay I can live with that but how do we find that 5% in case we need them? K

Well Boo, I have not seen many famous people in my life but I did get to see Howard Cosell climb a chain link fence when he was in Texas to cover an Evil Kenievel event here in Texas. As far as the other two I would not admit to. K Also got to see Kurt Russell, Cher and Meryl Streep when part of a movie was filmed where I worked, Silkwood. They are just regular people except for Meryl. They are larger than life on the big screen but when you see them for a couple of weeks, you realize they are just people doing their jobs.

Love cats but could not have them, I am allergic, but it does please me they do lick their butts just like dogs!! K

Run to it @Boo, these are the best years ever. Put up everything, decorate floor to ceiling (as long as baby girl can't get at it). Plan nightly rides in the car to take little Miss and Sugar Britches out to look at lights in the neighborhood. Get home and make hot chocolate or some special treat. We made it a holiday tradition. You too can create your own Christmas Vacation for future generations. They will remember and love every minute!! K