Firstly ..welcome aboard ..
Im guessing deep down ..you would love to be a non smoker....that's why you here ....right !!!
I was the same age as you when I came here and quit..so yes my friend it's doable..
I'm sorry too..you have lost your companion in life..
But I have too..he,s not passed away ..yet !...sorry to be blunt ..he is end stage Emphysema... And is in hospital as I write..because his blood will not hold enough oxygen..
Believe me..this is no life for anyone...
Take a seat beside me...
You won't regret it...I promise...and you know....its great to make new friends and just hang out and have fun...you up for it ????