to all here on the QT that reached out to me recently...got a lot good advice, and wonderful support...
I want to thank all of you, and let you (and our lurkers) know that I let some of those closest to me in the family know I was really struggling keeping my quit lately... and rather then blowing me off - they were very supportive as well..
I didn't want to admit i was have'n a hard time... I didn't want them to feel like they had to "walk on egg shells" around me... what i found out is it's just the opposite... they want to help - but don't have a clue how...and as good as I THOUGHT I was hiding it - they knew I was starting to feel the strain, and had talked about me relapsing ... going to them and bringing it out in the open is something I wouldn't have done without the love and support I got here...
So, Thank You to my Quit Train family... your encouragement to open up here, let me have the good sense to open up to them... and things are a bit less pressured on the home front.
I'm still being "carried" on some very big broad shoulders ;) of a dear friend , cuz I'm still not 100%... but, I do feel stronger.
For our Lurkers out there... take this to heart... the people here really do care.. they saw what I couldn't see I needed for myself.. and they led me in the right direction...be confident that if you come join the QT family, if you start to lose your way, they'll help you find your way back...
But you have to join us first.....
I fully believe, if I hadn't listened to - been open to -all the help-support-advice and love I got here last week.. I'd be smoking again ...
So to my "family" here, from the bottom of my heart, {{{Thank You}}}.. :wub:
And to you out there reading this, make the leap... you wont go this alone - I promise.