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This was my entry on the same day as you would be on above: Meh today sucks, I am doing a whole body shake thing on and off, so tempting to cheat but it's only me I'm cheating...and I don't want too, so I'm not sure why I keep wanting to smoke, when I don't want to smoke?? Everything and everyone is getting on my nerves, I get the ride it out and this too shall pass but wow, I don't even know why I'm feeling this or what to do to fill the gaps left by smoking (time wise I mean). My skin is on fire and so itchy too, especially my face and neck. I feel gluggy where I'm sipping water so often lol. Anyway I made a ticker to track progress, perhaps it will re-focus me. I was very unsure as well!! But I trusted the guys who said it would get better, it really did get better. Also every "hard day" like that made my quit much stronger. You've now seen even when it feels bad you can un-elegantly plod through and that will serve you well for future triggers. You are doing it exactly right and where you should be. Today will feel much better because of what you faced down yesterday, I bet on it :) xx

thank you marti

day seven: going back and forth. I want to smoke a cigarette, no I dont, yes I do, no I dont. the real ness is I do but I dont want the 500 behind that one. and I know if I smoke that one I will smoke its brother, sister, mother and all its nieces and nephews before I go to bed tonight. so here I am again making a commitment again to not take one puff today.