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I had to look poutine up. Egads. Hope you are doing well, Julie!

Elderberries stain, for sure. But. . .only if you slather them on your face. :-)

http://www.starwest-botanicals.com/category/bulk-herbs/ I grow mine. Plant an elderberry bush outside in the backyard. Needs no attention. Horehound and Marshmallow are both perennial herbs that require no attention and all come up every year. Love herbs. Very difficult to kill them. Plant once and you are good for many years! Just pick berries when they are purple and dry them, and cut herbs end of summer and hang up and brew tea when needed. They look cool hanging in your kitchen, too. lol!

Thank you. I wasted too much time staring at the post. . . .

Horehound, Marshmallow, elderberry tea. Buy the dried herbs and keep them handy for the winter gunk. Doesn't cure a cold, but shaves off about 50 percent of the downtime. Splash of honey and lemon works well in it for sweet and kick. also medicinal. Feel better soon.

Seriously, that's weird. :wacko2: ;)

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Cause I'm hooked on the television series I thought I'd begin reading the books. Not sure yet. Seem to be romances, which I generally run from. Not bad. http://www.amazon.com/Outlander-Diana-Gabaldon/dp/0440212561

Just for today, no smoking!

Don't know why, or if there is even a reason; just know that, while months 4 and 5 weren't bad at all, this month just sucks as far as wanting to smoke. I've been watching Joel's videos, reminding myself as to the reality rather than the delusion of my reasons, but I'm still craving maybe 15 or so times a day for the last 3 weeks or so. Just wanted to write it because down deep I don't want to be a smoker. Or, rather, I do but without any repercussions. Thus, the brain wars! My head is still trying, in spite of all evidence, to create a scenario that just doesn't exist. Will be glad when it just SHUTS UP.

Netflix is 9 dollars a month unlimited online viewing of all their offerings. I never have any problems viewing. We cancelled cable years ago. Lots of money for 16 Chanel's of. . . well, Pink Floyd fans will understand. Lol!

Ah. Damn. Yeah.

My sister came down this weekend. We have a "24 hour" rule. We can love each other that long, and then one of us has to go. After the 24 hours, we just don't like each other much anymore. We went and got a pedicure together, my first. Had a great time with her. Then she took a picture of our sparkly toes (mine were sparklier!) That parenthetical gives a clue to part of our sisterly issues. lol! Family; go figure. Glad it went as well as it could for you and your mom is hanging in there, Chrys.

You're not alone! 6 months here, and this month has been tougher than months 4 and 5 for some reason. Hubby in with heart attack, move from farm to town, etc. so I've chalked it up to changes and stress, but whatever the reason, it sucks. I want to be someone with no cravings and no memories of "good" smokes. Having said that. . . Cardiologist said husband's 2 heart attacks this month was the direct result of his smoking for 40 years. One stint later, and me (reluctantly) learning how to cook non wheat non sugar, husband's doing great. My intermittent craving for a cigarette seems to have diminished for the moment, anyway!! At first, I gave it a month; if I am still wanting a cigarette then, I'm so out of here. Then, it was 3 months. Wasn't fair to give it a shorter time given I was a heavy smoker for 40 years. Then, I upped it to 6 months, after reading about the physical effects of nicotine on the body. Now, I've decided to be a non smoker. Let's face it; I'm not wanting to smoke just one; neither are you. And we know what happens if we smoke. So, I tell my head to shut the **** up when it starts lying to me again about how good it will taste, how I could just smoke every now and then, etc. Because it is a lie, you know. And who the heck wants to walk around all the time constantly craving something they can't have as much as they want? (ok, maybe that doesn't make sense to anyone but me!) Hang tough, Holski. It passes.

Bacon, then?

I'm a fan of Iles, too.

Rereading Pearl Buck's Pavilion of Women. Forgot what a good writer she was.

Go home. Have a cup of tea. Turn the fan on high. My sympathies. FYI: the "smooth" people are demons.

If you do, then you are looking at, maybe, six months or so of being uncomfortable. If you don't, then you are looking at, well, uh, death and shit.

Relapse is a choice that comes after neglecting to do what I have been taught to do in order to keep my "quit." Frankly, I did not expect quite this much difficulty for this length of time, primarily due to having minimized the role of nicotine in my life. However, nicotine has been a part of Everything I have done for 40 years, and the addictive nature of nicotine I dramatically underestimated. However, If I stay educated and alert to the addiction of nicotine, then I can stay, just for today, clean off nicotine. My take on it is, as long as I never forget that it is impossible to smoke just one--for me, to smoke one means I will be smoking the three packs a day again until I die or I quit again (and who wants to do either of those things!!!!), then I will not smoke. I think it's bullshit to have an "emergency stash"; I am not talking about Chantix here, by the way, but a nicotine product of any kind. I agree with Joel, that there is no excuse for relapse; if I relapse, it is not because I am more emotionally sensitive or weaker than the next or that nicotine is SUCH a powerful drug, it is because I have let the denial/illusion creep back in again that I can smoke just one. I have six months clean off of nicotine; I don't need to see success/fail rates for this forum.Whatever the numbers, I would only twist the info in order to talk myself into smoking the next time I have a desire to smoke. lol! So, I try to be honest when I have a desire to smoke I try to REALLY look at what smoking just that one will lead to I remember that a craving only lasts a couple of minutes And I come here so that we can keep reminding each other of all this. . . FYI; I didn't want to smoke last week while waiting to see how hubby was doing after the heart attack; I wanted to smoke when leaving the hospital, walking out to the parking lot. Damn triggers. That desire was greatly minimized by seeing a woman pushing an IV pole, gown flapping, over to a van to get a puff off of her friend who was smoking and sitting in the van. I have no idea what the woman was in the hospital for, but I could sure relate at the moment. And, I didn't want that woman to be me some day.

Just read the it above your avatar. Rofl......that is so me right now!

Quit means just right now. And then do it again

AND TO YOU! WE DID IT!!!

At this point, it's going to be some reeeaaally low key celebrations!

Why are there pink flamingos behind you? Just , you know, curious. . . Thanks, Action!