It´s time to go to bed, but I had this whole ritual that obviously involved cigarettes. I feel like I´m not in control, I want a cigarette so bad right now... can´t sleep. Help!!!

Somebody? Help?

Nope? Anyone?

Come on, please!!!

Nat, you still here ?  Talk to me.... please. Dont' smoke.

I'm here.   What's going on ?

 

Please don't go away.  I will talk all night if you need to.  Sorry no one answered but there is someone here now and all I'm asking is that you talk to me.

Natttalliiee !!!!  I'm so hoping you fell asleep.......

 

I'm still here.  Let's talk.

No I'm not, thanks for amswering. It's just a cigarette but I feel.so anxious and lost right now

And I don't know why...extremely thirsty

Yeah, it's a horrible feeling. I know. 

 

But listen to this..... I know it sounds crazy.  But your body is actually healing right now.  If you can just bear through it, I promise you it will get better. 

 

But if you choose to smoke, you will be back at day one.  And neither one of us want that, now do we ?

Your blood sugar may be low.  Can you eat something sweet for me?

Cigarettes affect your blood sugars for quite some time.  Eat something and let's see if you feel better. 

 

And let's talk about something other than smoking.  Or not smoking.  lol 

 

Tell me a little about your self. 

Your doing amazing.  I noticed it was an hour since your first post and the last one before I signed on.  And you didn't go smoke !!! 

 

Do you know what that means ?  That means you REALLY want to quit. 

 

And your doing fabulous !!!!

Are you eating something ?

Yes I really want to quit! And ok, I'm eating some cookies right now. About myself? I can't think clearly now...I have a degree in literature and linguistics but got married young and for now I'm a housewife...I like reading, arts...

I want kids but I don't want to be a bad example for them. My dad smoked a lot and even if he explained me it was bad I admired him a lot and thought smoking was awesome. He died of lung cancer. I don't want that.

You got this NAT.  :)

Good, the cookies will definitely help.  My favorite is chocolate chip with walnuts.  lol

 

Reading and art, huh ?  That's pretty cool  I bet you can write pretty good too.

 

Your doing good, just keep going...... by the time you wake up in the morning, your gonna be so freaking proud of yourself.

I'm sorry to hear that. 

 

Your definitely making the right choice.  Can you imagine raising children NEVER knowing a smoking mommy ?  That's the way it was meant to be.  Cigarettes are evil.

Do you like baking? What do you guys like?

I'm not a big baker.  Heck, I'm not really even a good cook.  BUT !!!!  I have been doing crock pot cooking the last few days and OH. MY. GOD !!!!  It's so goooood !!!! 

I get home from work and wah lah !!  dinner is made. I love it.

I always wonder if they're so evil why do we get so hooked? Some people smoke for 50 years...

It's a set up.  And it's cruel.  They know what they are doing and they still do it. 

 

Do you know there are actually anti depressants and anti anxiety components in those damn things ?

I get home from work and wah lah !! dinner is made. I love it.

What do you work at?