MLMR

This is my My. Big. Fat. Nope.

Had a bit of a sh*tty day today. Multiple cravings, didnt know where, what or why. Said: Nope. Nope. Nope. No discussion about it. Felt relieved afterwards! This attitude does work. Trying to downsize as much as possible. I am so happy about my sleep, apart from two or three bad nights everything is ok. Makes it all a lot less tense. Day 8 already. Moving fast!

I remember doing this during my first quit. Couldnt face leaving cigarettes behind me and so I kept rolling them, smelling them, holding them in my hands as if I was about to light up. Everyone around me smoked at that time, including my bf. It gave me a (false) sense of security I guess and also: power. Because I would NOT light up and I only did it during easy times, wouldnt jeopardize myself. Or so I thought. Now, looking back at that I think Its a bizarre thing to do. Im actually a bit ashamed about it, as well. I kept romanticising the smoking lifestyle. Ive pretty much sobered up since then: smoking just means slowly killing yourself. I hope you stay with us quitters, Brioski. Dont make me catch up!

Wake up at 6. Drink coffee. Enjoy silence. Take one hour walk. Drink tea. Enjoy energy and space in chest. Shower. Start rest of the day. Aye.

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… and suddenly, Its almost been a week. I am doing good. One or two slightly difficult moments during the day, but thats pretty much it. I have a lot to be thankfull for: I am healthy, have a job, good friends and I live in freedom. I made a mantra about that, to remind myself that I have the luxury of choosing a healthy life. Its a privilege and to me its a gentle way of saying, ok, dont whine and get on with it. This positive attitude about it -> its somewhat ‘fake it untill you make it’ but it works. Focussing on what I gain and knowing that all these awkard feelings are essentially just a sign that im doing the right thing. I guess detox is over now, on to the next phase. I am excited about it, reminds me of my very first quit years ago. I am curious of the discoveries to come.

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day 5 = done. Yeah.

Ok, so day 4 is a fact. So happy I got through, it wasnt easy. Had lots of tea, carrots and cellery (yuk). I only said this one thing: it will be better. No discussion, immediate change of focus. Hard work tbh, at times smoking seemed to be the most delicious thing in the world. Yeah, but no. Hope I have a good night. Looking forward to my long morning walk already, been doing that for four days now. Its a bit addictive.

I guess its just the brain doing some necessary readjusting. But does it HAVE to be doing that at night…? Hmm, just trying not to bother about it too much. Last time it took me some 6 weeks, I believe, for my sleep to be normal again. bah, might as well fold some laundry

Gus, atm there’s only one thing that needs to come… sleep!! I forgot about these awfull hours awake. Brrr. Hope they wont last too long.

Hey Brioski, I just read through your thread. You have come a long way. Please, do not give up! I did that after 3+ years and before that ive messed up a 5+ years quit. Still sorry about that… it makes me all the more determined to do it right this time. Smoking is not worth time, money or effort. I remember from previous quits the lasting sadness and mourning. I swear by Joel Spitzers ‘acknoledge the negative, but dwell on the positive’. I started to magnify every positive little thing a thousand times, it really works. I gave myself chores, distraction, rest. Each phase had its own solutions I guess. Every time I beat a craving, I was soooo happy and proud and relieved. Celebrating these moments is important! They are huge and literally mean the difference between freedom and slavery. You are doing your brain a huge favour by quitting, imagine all these new pathways. I wish you strength in your quit. Hang in there!

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Thanks! Day 3 done. Not easy but certainly doable. Proud for not giving in. More air already, no stench. Glad I came back here.

Ahhh. Third day. Breath in breath out. I want to get through -> only one way, forward. Ahhhhh!!!! NOPE

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Movie: fantastic. Mood: good. Took a long walk, now cooking. Had two hours where I was about to climb the walls, but went better once i decided to keep myself occupied. No room for doubt - basta.

Thanks Gus and Brioski. The first 24 hours are coming in sight- pfieww. I have sheep in my head, but I am also very restless. Perfect day to go and see Oppenheimer.

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Thanks all. Glad I came here. Feels like there’s a bit of weight off my shoulders. It will be water and tea tonight. I want to make this work.

Hello. I hate coming back here - but I know I need it. Been smoking on and off for four years now, what a waste of health and confidence. Back at square one I guess. Can’t stand the fact that quitting seems this hard AGAIN. So, buckle up and go. Today is a good day for it. I dont really have a plan, other than going through it moment by moment. Millions of people did it, I did it myself, so… yeah . Resolve. Resolve. Resolve. I will have faith, even when I dont. Each crappy moment will be followed by better times. Embrace the suck and grow a beautiful baby quit. I got this in me. 27-08, 14:00. Day one -> no turning back.

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