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I noticed the same thing. I am praying for all in its path.

I also was a closet smoker and you give the perfect description of my life. No more! Freedom is wonderful. Praying for the safety of all who is in the path of this storm.

I think we all kept smoking with the thought that nothing was going to happen to us. I smoked though breast cancer and radiation! I was scared to death I was going to die from breast cancer but not cigarettes??????? I have to say it - WTF was I thinking. I could not have quit without this forum. All the failed attempts with my doctor's help did not work because I was so ashamed and always felt the doctors looked down on me. Here I am in the comfort of those that know me and truly understand the addiction. I am now excited at the prospect of living my life without them and know that quitting can be done. I also get excited when I see new quitters show up and realize that I can help them on their journey.

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You are doing great - 2 days is awesome. I promise you will feel better. Just keep that quit going!

You are so bad? I would love to see your search history. Where do you find this stuff?

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@time4change So glad you decided to make this wonderful life change. I smoked for 42 years and tried many times to quit. I tried hypnosis and a smoking cessation program at the Cleveland Clinic. This is the only place I have found success. Accept that the first few days will be tough but they are doable. Watch videos and read as much as you can on the site. I promise that the further you get away from the addiction you will feel so much better about yourself. The people on this forum will be here for you. It has been a place to open up, be honest and heal from the inside out. I found deep breaths, lots of fluid and I did sleep a lot the first couple of days. Post if you need help. We are here for you.

@time4change so glad you joined the group. This is a great place to be. If you have been following my journey, you know what great support you get here. You also know there will be some bad days but you will get through. Shout out or message me if you need anything. The great part of the forum is you help support others going through the same struggle.

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Alright you have me crying. Thanks for the support, vibes and that lovely baloon @c9jane29. I don't know why I panicked so bad before I left. It actually was quite nice. The thought of a cigarette did not even cross my mind during the whole event. Yes, as I sat at the end of the long table and looked at my frail dad, I did feel good about taking care of him. During dinner, he seemed to have some kind of spell and thought we were going to have to call an ambulance. Of course, my loving husband, son and I were there to hold his hand and comfort him. I guess I should be thankful he was able to celebrate this big birthday. No my brothers don't get it but I do and I am better for it. Two more days and they will all be off and things will be back to normal. Thank you so much my quit warriors. Right now, I feel my quit is solid. Hopefully there won't be anymore fragile moments.

Okay @Martian5 and @DragonsFancy I know I can do this. I am just a bunch of emotions. I will let you know how things go. Times like these, I wish I drank. Smoking was my only vice.

Boy I have been feeling on top of the world with this quit (that was up until an hour ago). As I start to get ready for this 90th party for my dad I can feel the confidence start to wain. The emotions are starting to bubble up on the inside. I can see every one of those donut holes I ate last week peeking through my outfit ?. I started to dig through the drawers for a nice purse and started to think there might be an old pack hiding in one. Then I search the nightstand. What are you doing Linda? You do not want to go there. I won't go there. I just need to put the raw emotions out there. The anger of the responsibility I have been dealing, with my parents and their health, is really weighing heavy on me and I am resentful. My brother and his kids flew in and spent the last two days running around enjoying the nightlife of Cleveland. Not helping with Mom and Dad. But then again, they are here and my brother is paying for the party. But it is hard to get Dad out and dressed and he needs a shower and they are out having a good time. Of course I make sure dad is ready to go. Matter of fact, I am looking old and am tired because I have so much responsibility. My brother lives in California and looks young and tan and well weathered. He is an electrical engineer that owns his own company. No worries. Maybe I am just being bit by the jealous monger. I did make him responsible for getting dad to the restaurant so he knows how much work I put in getting him to all his doctor appts. It is so difficult getting him in and out of the car. Okay, I need to stop. I need my quit warriors to send me plenty of positive vibes in about an hour. I will get through this

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Your on your way @DragonsFancy. Hang tough and you will succeed. Today is the first day of your better life.

Yuck. Now that I am finally quitting - I just want it out! Why oh why did it take so long for that light bulb to go off!!!!!

@MLMR So glad you are seeing your doctor. You are still quite early in your quit. I am just a little ahead of you on the quit train and I also have had those roller coaster mood swings. I think our low self esteem has a lot to do with smoking and it really rears it's ugly head when we quit. I am finding the further away I get from smoking, my self esteem is growing. Remember it is not just a physical addiction, it is a mental addiction. Don 't isolate yourself sweetie. At least let us know how you are doing. We care and are here for you!