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MichelleDoesntSmokeAnymore

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  1. Hi Everyone and Dear Me, This is a nasty addiction and its harder to kick than the addiction to other substances I've managed to beat into remission and stay clean from one day at a time. Nicotine is much harder. I smoked for 36 years and have been vaping for the last 3 years. I love the experience of vaping: everything about it except the embarrassment that I was doing it. When I'm quit, once I entertain the idea of smoking or vaping (just once! lol) the desire grows and grows and grows even as I remind myself its a terrible idea, of how I've been doing well and of all the reasons NOT to. Then it seems like I can't NOT smoke or vape. I know I can make the choice not to though. I've made it before! I've had two long term quits in my life! So I know I can do it. I want to coexist in my nonsmoking family as a nonsmoker and be around for years and years to come! This is a very very familiar pattern to me. Its the same thought pattern and behavior as I had with drugs and alcohol, and the same one I still struggle with, with food. So it stands to reason if I use the same tools I learned in recovery and apply them to smoking, which is what I did on my last significant quit, that I WILL STAY QUIT. I am still open to any suggestions, advice or recommendations. I'm going to spend my evening reading and chatting on the forum, watching Joel Spitzer's videos, brushing my teeth repeatedly, deep breathing and sipping cooooold ice water (helps me more than gum) I also plan to start a blog in the blog section. I also want to encourage others, not only because I want to help others but because it will help me as well. And I need to remember that my sister and brother in law, who are four years older than me, are healthier than me and look much younger than they are. Younger than me maybe even. They have that smooth skin and no vertical lines around their lips, no vertical lines on their neck when its tightened up. IDK if I can reverse the signs of smoking on my face or just stop it in its tracks but the most important thing is my health and longevity anyway. Thanks again for the tough love guys. My every intention at this moment is to stay and have a permanent quit.
  2. Thank you Jillar! Which one is the main forum? The first one I see in the list is introductions and about us. I'll check the vape forum for sure. And I'm planning to use this site instead of Facebook LOL. It sure is more uplifting!
  3. How do you cope with the fear that you've done harm to your body and might still develop a fatal smoking related disease? Dealing with this now. Its what has me quitting this time around, my sticky quit, but it still keeps me up at night sometimes.
  4. Hi Everyone, I'm trying to get a sense of the forums. This one is titled Introductions and About Us but it seems to be the only place where people post miscellaneous stuff about their own personal quit, unless I'm missing something ?The reason I ask is because I want to post things in the appropriate places. Anyway, let me delve into whats going on in my head as I round out hour 6 (with NRT, but still impressive given my recent history) This is a nasty addiction and its harder to kick than the addiction to other substances I've managed to beat into remission and stay clean from one day at a time. Nicotine is much harder. I smoked for 36 years and have been vaping for the last 3 years. I love the experience of vaping: everything about it except the embarrassment that I was doing it. When I'm quit, once I entertain the idea of smoking or vaping (just once! lol) the desire grows and grows and grows even as I remind myself its a terrible idea, of how I've been doing well and of all the reasons NOT to. Then it seems like I can't NOT smoke or vape. I know I can make the choice not to though. I've made it before! I've had two long term quits in my life! So I know I can do it. I want to coexist in my nonsmoking family as a nonsmoker and be around for years and years to come! This is a very very familiar pattern to me. Its the same thought pattern and behavior as I had with drugs and alcohol, and the same one I still struggle with, with food. So it stands to reason if I use the same tools I learned in recovery and apply them to smoking, which is what I did on my last significant quit, that I WILL STAY QUIT. I am still open to any suggestions, advice or recommendations. I'm going to spend my evening reading and chatting on the forum, watching Joel Spitzer's videos, brushing my teeth repeatedly, deep breathing and sipping cooooold ice water (helps me more than gum) I also plan to start a blog in the blog section. I also want to encourage others, not only because I want to help others but because it will help me as well. And I need to remember that my sister and brother in law, who are four years older than me, are healthier than me and look much younger than they are. Younger than me maybe even. They have that smooth skin and no vertical lines around their lips, no vertical lines on their neck when its tightened up. IDK if I can reverse the signs of smoking on my face or just stop it in its tracks but the most important thing is my health and longevity anyway. Thanks again for the tough love guys. My every intention at this moment is to stay and have a permanent quit.
  5. HAHAHAAAAA I love that title....the answer is a resounding NO!! But I'll watch it anyway. Joel is great!
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  7. Day two begins. I'm finally getting some traction. So....NOPE
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    1. Sazerac

      Sazerac

      yay, Michelle !  This is wonderful news.

      Stay focused and reward yourself for EVERY

      crave/trigger you conquer.

      Let us know how you are doing.

  9. ...quitting this time. Back and forth back and forth even tho I know what I'm doing to my body. Is it ok to talk about NRT here? My doctor prescribed patches for me and I've picked July 4th as my quit date. My freedom date. Thank you all for being here to support each other. It helped me quit last time. I can do it again!!
  10. I finally WANT to quit. Until now its just been knowing I NEED to quit. Thank goodness. I'm not sure why or how the switch went on in my head but I'm glad it did! I can't find my signature area to put my ticker info on. This is hard for me to admit because I'm a techy, but I'll be darned if I can find it. Can someone point me in the right direction?
  11. I slipped yesterday so I reset my quit date for mid-day yesterday. So....NOPE!!!!
  12. Sorry to ask, I'm sure everyone asks this...but once I create a ticket where do I paste the info it gives me?
  13. ...for what seems like the billionth time!! Just put down the vape for good. I'm going through a tremendously challenging time in my life so might as well pull off the band aid right??
  14. Hi Everyone, I've been on and off this board for a long time. I keep trying! i keep coming back! Today I am flying from Seattle to Sacramento to visit my sister for a long weekend. She has never smoked and is very worried about me (so am I) She told me a few months ago that the next time I visit I will have to be nicotine free because even though I only smoked outside when I last visited her, the smell lingered in her guest bedroom after I left. I promised her I would. So....once I get to the airport I'm putting a patch on and that will be that. I'm 51 and have smoked since I was 13 or 14 and I've been lucky so far to not have any life threatening consequences but the clock is ticking, I know it is. Today I decide that my health and my very life are more important than sucking poison into my lungs. Today I love my heart and my lungs more than I love the cig or vape. Today I will stop thinking "I'll quit soon" and actually QUIT. Today I will be free. I'll stay close to the board. Thank you for being here for me everytime I pop in. Michelle
  15. Hi everyone! I am back, 9 hours into this quit, courtesy of determination and a nicotine patch. Tomorrow morning I will take my first nope pledge. For now, I'm off to Dreamland. I'm lucky that I don't have disturbing dreams when I wear them at night. I'll see you all bright and early in the morning!
  16. Thanks you guys. I am pretty knowledgable about addiction...of course i don't know EVERYTHING. no one does. But my addiction to other substances is in remission one day at a time as long as I go to my meetings and work my program...which makes me CRAZY that I have yet to have a long term quit from nicotine. I didn't have to "step down" or "wean down" on any of my other substances. I just stopped and it was hell for a while but got easier and easier. I wish I could apply that same dedication to nicotine. But I keep trying and failing and I'd rather have the help from NRTs for the first bit. Kudos to everyone who's quit, whether you've used NRTs or not. I respect everyone's recovery. Thank you for being welcoming!
  17. Thanks all. When I used this forum during my last quit i was here CONSTANTLY and it really helped. And people DID come running to help me when I posted SOS....I'm so grateful for that, and it really helped, so thats what I'll do this time. I'm going to get my NRTs tomorrow at noon. I dont know if I can stay vape free until then but I will try. Yeah...vaping...I started two years ago thinking that I could gradually reduce the amount of nicotine I took in but it tastes good and for me, it didn't work. Maybe for some but not for me. I want to quit for good, then spend the rest of my life filling my body with antioxidents, supplements, get lots of exercise and try to make the rest of my life much healther than it has been so far!!!
  18. Hi Everyone....I am back. My screenname used to be MichelleDoesntSmoke but I cant log into that account so I made this one. I'm going to give this quitting thing another try. I know that you can quit cold turkey...many people have, and I know the first four or five days are the hardest but I just can't seem to get past that point so I'm going to go the patch route. I hope that I don't get "flack" for that. I really need the support. I started when I was 13 and I'm now 51. I've had two successful year long quits before. Anger always leads me back. Silly really but I think its like that for a lot of us. So it looks like tomorrow is my day...I'm going in to the local tribe's office at noon to sign up for their support program. They provide gum, patches, candy and support. Saturday I will start the NOPE pledge while flooding my system with icy cold water. That really helped last time. I'm looking forward to meeting everyone!

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