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I'm feeling back in the game now. Feeling like I've had my relapse and learned a lot from it. Friday was spent playing football with my son and Saturday was spent playing football with the exe's son so keeping busy part of it is there. Today was spent working, not so enjoyable but again keeping busy. A relapse is not a good thing in any way, shape or form but I am determined to learn from my relapse and how shit it made me feel mentally and physically. I have a family holiday coming up next. I think what I have learned will help me on that holiday also. Thanks for all the words of encouragement and advice.

Late nope check in.

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100% Sarge. Back on it already. Motivations: Child, health and money. All the motivations you'd expect from any other person. My relapse has resurfaced all the reasons I packed in originally. I suffer anxiety when smoking, not nice and not something I want to be walking round with constantly again.

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Thanks for the replies everyone. I have a renewed sense of vigour today. A new dawn so to speak. The way I'm looking at it is I have relapsed and had a maximum of 8 ciggies since January 1st. That's not a total relapse it's a short fail along a long path of freedom. Back in the zone now. Gonna do a nice long walk tonight.

So here goes. I packed in the evil money stealing, life draining tobacco in January 1st this year, I even remember the time it was 45 minutes into the new year. Things went great for nearly 6 months until a family party came up. I had been out other times and still hadn't smoked but this was different. This was family. I had conquered every other situation but I hadn't done a family occasion where all family member smokers were going to be. I wilted under the pressure. Alcohol and football (Champions League Final) got the better of me. I lasted most of the night but after the football, wrong result, I had one. And when I woke up the next morning I had another 2. That was that until Monday 2nd July. A music gig came up and a friend was smoking for the night. Without even having a drink I took a ciggie off him. The rest of the night I had another 3. I went a week and a day until last night, Tuesday 10th. I went to my exes and just had a massive urge. I had a cigarette off her. This morning I had the urge again and had one off my brother before work. Back to my exes tonight, because I go and visit my son, and had another 2. I'm sitting here now thinking of situations where I can have another one. I don't want to in my conscious mind, the urges are massive. When I have been packed in I have been jogging a lot but these last 2 months I haven't been running because of various things in my complicated life. I know what I need to do. I'm sitting here writing down reasons why I quit in the 1st place but now I have more reasons and them reasons are how smoking is making me feel now I am at entry level again. They are seriously making me feel the way I used to feel before packing in. Anxiety ridden, out of breath, fearful of the money factor, smoking during the time I have with my son. A little 10 minutes here and there leaving the room to have a ciggie matters to him. He notices when I leave the room. The fight has to start again. I feel up for it. I need to lose the thoughts of finding situations. Every time I have a thought now I'm going to stick my earphones on and play a song from Spotify. My earphones will constantly be in my pocket. I'm going to make time for exercising because alongside the packing in of ciggies there is nothing better to feel the health benefits. I am also going to keep adding to my list so any suggestions for my list then please feel free to add to this thread. Thanks for your time guys. NOPE

Thanks and yes I will when I get home from work write about my experience. It will help me and help others aswell. Seeing as though I'm in the NOPE'ing thread I'll throw another NOPE in here.

Back NOPE'ing after a minor relapse.

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That is a great article and a great help for me at this moment in time.

Every Nope day is a happy day.

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Lifetime Noper checking in.

Nope means nope.

Lifetime noper checking in.

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Double NOPE because I missed my NOPE yesterday.

Starting the morning with a NOPE.

As always, nope!!

Nope, I've got 2 and a half miles to run tonight.