Hi all,
Today is the day. My quit day. I've been here before but it's been a while. My best quit was for 7 years. I was so healthy and happy without that ball and chain. I want that back.
I did not want to get out of bed this morning. Luckily my hubby took the dog out. I usually take her out to do her business while I smoke my first cig of the day. I've been up for 3 hours now, mostly on this site.
I had a weird, vivid chantix dream last night. In the dream it was my quit day. There was a very big problem (stolen truck, late for work, etc) I really wanted a smoke. Then I turned to my daughter and said "having a cigarette is not going to fix this" Thank you for Joel's videos that I watched yesterday!
I have an addiction to smoking and vaping. I think quitting vaping will be the hardest for me. In my previous quits I only smoked cigs, no vape. Lately I only smoke a few cigarettes a day outside, but I puff on a vape almost all day. In the house, in the car, in public... places I would not smoke cigs.
I think I'll go back to bed now. Thanks for being here to support. I'll check in later.
JoJo