August 13, 201412 yr A huge thankyou for all your posts and letting us follow your journey, you may not realise it but you have saved me from relapsing on so many occasions. Last night I lay awake and was seriously considering going to a 24 hour shop to buy cigarettes at 2 a.m. But I remember Tracey and Action going through similar thoughts at 7 months and many others who have posted about struggles. We all think that our posts maybe don't reach out but let me tell you they do, however small and insignificant you think your quit smoking journey is, let me tell you its not, its a beacon for someone else, someone else to read and to remember when they are struggling, your journey gives someone else belief that it will and can get better. I woke this morning relieved and grateful that I did not let my nearly 7 month quit go, I'm still struggling but I will not give into the thought as I know from quitters further ahead of me on their journey that it will ease and it will go away and I will be better off for not giving in. So for everyone who is behind me in their quit, look ahead, see me waving, hear my words "it gets easier" "don't give up, read and educate yourself" "we are all here together in our journey".
August 13, 201412 yr Good for you Jackie - 7 months was bloody hard, and I am so glad that I posted about it!! Amazing how one little post can have an effect 3 months later. And this post will help a lot of people too, thank you for sharing! I hope that you are feeling better today!!
August 13, 201412 yr I'm glad you said this..... i've really been struggle'n the last week or so.....thank you.
August 13, 201412 yr I'm glad you said this..... i've really been struggle'n the last week or so.....thank you. Awww, (((lace)))
August 13, 201412 yr Jackie I love this post. 7 months has been hard for me too. I was actually shocked at how many times the junkie has come out. My husband uses dip (skoal, copenhagen, it is disgusting) and asked me to run to the gas station for him the other day. I toyed with the idea of going to the gas station and buying a pack. Then I thought about it, actually thought about it, did I really want to throw away 7 months? Did I want to go through the horrors of hell week again? I can actually run now, did I want to throw that away? Did I want to go back to the ER twice a month because I was having chest pain? I thought back to my first ever cigarette and how physically sick it made me it didn't make me feel good it made me dizzy and sick to my stomach. Why would I throw all of these healthy months away for that? Being that I even thought about buying a pack I told him that I couldn't go and that he would have to because I was romancing the idea of smoking. He understood and went himself. I feel so much better reading that some of my sister quitters are going through the same things that I am. Thank you for posting this. (((Jackie)))
August 13, 201412 yr well done folks don't give in after 7 months that over1/2 a year wtg we are all in the same boat or train here so keep riding the ruff road will smooth out sooner or later so hang on tight and keep riding :D :D
August 13, 201412 yr Awww guys, I'm so sorry you're feeling like this is hard right now. I have no advice as I'm behind you but I am utterly willing all 3 ladies forward. Never look back! xx
August 13, 201412 yr Jackie and lace..... When ever I struggled I came here and read all the fun stuff.... You both have come so far,...... Stay closer to the board at times like this..... Hugs to you both xx
August 13, 201412 yr Keep going, it's just a little longer. And what is the it you ask? It was the second big easement to me (the first was at four months for me). It will feel like a peaceful wave washing over you as your brain reaches total acceptance that you are a non-smoker and that there is no more chance for the cigarette ever. Thoughts of smoking will seem silly after this and you will be able to wave them away. For me, the struggle was over, I won! That's the it you are hanging on for, keep going!
August 13, 201412 yr Nicobitches last ditch effort to get you back in the death club. Nice work fighting it off. I had the same issues at about the same time. Soon...it will be nothing but a fart in the wind. Hold on and congrats on your new life... you rock. Keep on keepin on.
August 13, 201412 yr Awwwww......but I'm nearly there...oh No..... Ha! We don't smoke. Simples. Part of it is missing the drama I think. Sometimes I do feel like a cigarette, because of ancient triggers, associations, even romancing the cigarette. I'm sure this wakes up my little inner addict - who tries all his normal tricks...but actually, the intensity is nothing like it used to be... Well done ladies for fighting it off, and for all those whom have posted before us... But I don't think Action was going to Smoke, or Tracey was going to Smoke, Or Jackie, or Lace - not really. I think that you have or are passing through another doorway as Paul describes. You are truly free of smoking... As Markus always says - Be vigilant. We all have our little inner junkie forever - but you have done it, you clever, beautiful, funny people. Well Done you!
August 13, 201412 yr Smashing the barriers when they show up which can be anytime even this week Mr junkie head is shouting at me but I'm ignoring him and going about my business I know too well now what it's about and it's not smoking Jackie and lace you both are doing fantastic you two keep holding on that rope as we most certainly are on this journey together xxx
August 13, 201412 yr Thanks for posting this! I needed to hear this as well. Always good to hear that the struggle is ALWAYS worth it!
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