Ramona

!!!!!2!!!!!

Tasting food.

******* ****** up mental health system. Turning people into numbers and profits. No ******* compassion. Shitheads abound.

Beautiful place Joe! You and the fam are supah dupah BLESSED!!!! Have a great vacation!

Nice milestone Tiffany!!! Kickin' butt.

Almost half a year under your belt!! Rock on!

Ugh.

Evelyn - thanks for your honest post!!! I can relate so much. I, too, feel the line has to be drawn with that level of ferocity. Let's do this, eh?

Need a belt? Kitchen around? Plastic wrap works great.

Yup, been here many times...horrifying.

Good advice here. All very true and important to keep in mind. The revival of my adrenaline system has got me real shook up...it's unbelievable. And I think the restlessness/boredom is another part for sure. AND the mourning because this IS it. Incredible challenge.

wooooo-hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! You ROCK!!!!!

8.5 is pretty darned good!

Seems to me that months 9-12 are going to be more challenging than months 6-9. Why??!? In 2009 I relapsed in the middle of my ninth month. I've definitely been experiencing a heightened crave level. What's going on?????? Are there any articles or resources which speak to this phenomenon? It's really irritating to say the least!

Bandito hit the nail. You overcame that abuse despite those stress-inducing, fortune-depleting, slave-making shit sticks. And you will continue to overcome.

That's real shitty Jess and I feel for you. I just experienced an excruciating crave about 4 days ago! So I can understand how someone might cave around 9-12 months. In fact, the last longest quit I had (back in 2009) ended in the 9th month. What's up with that??? I think MQ has a similar story. Thanks for your honesty - which helps all of us see that we're pretty much never 100% cleared. When are you jumping back on this train?

Got a final write-up but did not get fired. Need to learn how to accommodate my new adrenaline system...it's on hyper drive these days. Yikes. Sigh.

9 Months For Me. Thanks ya'll for being here.

!!BOOM!!

One-point-five keeping you alive! To help others. Thanks for being here.

Nice! I look up to young women with short hair!!! I'm such a wimp about my hair!

HolyDooly, In the first 4-5 months I gained ~ 20 lbs. I rolled with my quit, and ate whatever I wanted, and continued to exercise every day. In four days, I will be 9 months quit. I have returned to my pre-quit weight! Additionally, my body may weigh the same but it looks more feminine to me. I love it! It's less like a skeleton and more muscular and soft. Good stuff. About "locking yourself away." Why not? Maybe you need to hide away for a bit - accept yourself for your abnormal reactions and behavior. Even @ 9 months I sometimes act like a petulant child. I'm dealing with emotions I smoked away for over 15 years - - OF COURSE I'm a little nuts. My rule is: as long as I don't seriously injure myself or another, I will do whatever it takes. Sometimes I'll encounter a situation which floods my system with adrenaline (it feels like I'm mainlining a serious chemical into my veins). This is only my fight-or-flight response and it's working stronger than ever!!!! I'm not accustomed to it. The cigarettes/nicotine dulled that sensation. I've gotten into a bit of trouble for it, but so what? Neither I, nor anyone else, has been seriously injured!!! And I'm currently working on emotion regulation through meditation/prayer. This is not easy. It's SIMPLE. It's so simple - never take another puff. But easy? Heck no. That's why we're all here to get you through this unbelievable challenge. 2 months is remarkable and impressive. March on.

12 Days! Nice.

PS: Still feeling like a toddler sometimes...but a non-smoking one!!!!

Freaking feelings. What the f@#%K??????? :angry: :D :o :(