Soberjulie

Not too personal....Im mostly an open book. Snorting cocaine was my favorite activity and went hand in hand with drinking. The thing about that magical white powder though....is it will financially destroy you in the blink of an eye. :fool: Plus make you a little paranoid and delusional....which makes any self-respecting addict seek other drugs to counteract the effects of the drug they took too much of..... so one ends up eating all kinds of colorful pills. Pills that they were handed by bar owners/drug dealers/strangers/friends-of-friends. Mixing booze and cocaine and random pills, along with no food, no sleep....often leads to trips to the ER. Which means that its no secret from the hubby or the parents or the clean living friends. The kids were often protected from as much info as possible....but they knew life wasnt right. They knew I wasnt a typical mom......but they often thought it was because I sang in a bar. :girl_sad: Again...I am really really glad I dont live that way anymore.

The Jaybird and I have been hooked up and living in sin for 18yrs. :) Oy....when they turn about 11 or 12 and start to think they know everything and you know nothing....until....well, my oldest is 26 and Im still waiting for her to get normal! I took my first drink at 15 and my immediate thought was "OMG! Why did I wait so long!!" For me, it was some magical potion that allowed me to move through life without fear, anger, intollerance. My family suffered horribly. Likely much worse than I did.....because I had booze and drugs as an anesthetic. They just had to watch, with their hands tied, powerless to do anything. :huh: :wacko: From age 15 on I drank as often as I could and as much as I could, yet still try to function. But, as it tends to do...it caught up with me at the age of 35/36. I destroyed relationships, ruined jobs and had a long list of regrets. Im really really glad I dont live that way anymore. :wub:

-No. I miss my band. I miss my boys. But the band life is not very conducive to sober life or family life. A few times a year I sing at a festival with them....they visit and we play it up in my livingroom. But Im done with the bar stages. Besides, Im not sure my new non-smoking body could fit in the little get-ups that were part of that old life. LOL Hmmm...favorite song to sing.....thats hard. "Me and Bobby Mcgee" I think :) I was married for 6 years (married WAY too young) then divorced. Then took up with Jay (Bakon's long lost brother) and we've been living in sin for the last 18 years. :wub:

-Righting all the wrongs I made while I was drinking/using. In my 12 step world its known as amends or cleaning my side of the street. Im not sure 'accomplishment' is the right word to use....but Im grateful I was even given the opportunity. Some people should have slammed the door in my face....or beat me up....or something...but most people were very gracious. Many of them are friends today. -I'd have stayed in school and listened to my parents!! They would have paid for all my schooling if I hadnt dropped out as a teen......instead, I paid for my own college education once I figured out that being a rebel didnt pay well. If I could do it again, my parents would have been footing the bill for med school. -That I seem to be a magnet for anyone with any type of brain disorder/addiction/mental health issue etc. While many people run away....I run towards. -

Happy Anniversary!! :wub: :wub: <---------Tasha and Ross, sittin' in a tree. K-i-s-s-i-n-g.......

My avatars are all within the last 2 years. Its genetics.....simple luck of the draw. My sweet momma is 65 and could easily pass for my sister. :friends: But my poor younger brother....he got some other set of genes. We go out and people think hes my dad!! I love it!

This is gonna sound crazy......but I'd go to Calcutta. (Change your mind yet on coming Nanc?) Yes, Calcutta....the Mother Teresa place. I'd like to go for a 'working vacation' . I'd take the hubby because he can build stuff. Good stuff. :) I visit a salon for that too. Carpet is so yesterday. :tease:

If money wasnt an issue, how would you spend your days?

Nah.....in fact, much of my hair would be naturally streaked with grey if I didnt fight nature and spend $ to have it hidden.

Im really glad that I believe this wholeheartedly......because many many times Ive wanted to smoke, and my brain does this funny whacked out thing where it remembers things in a way that they never were!!

-16

Introvert or extrovert? Favorite music artist? Favorite meal?

-14

Aine....eye spy with my little eye...something that.......looks like someone got a new hair do and snapped a selfie. Va-va-voom lady!

Ride safe....watch out for the @ssholes. Have fun!

What's the last thing you did that made Mrs. Action really mad.....and how did you make amends?

Prove it. Say 'coffee' ;)

And you get a golf course contract for lawn maintenance. I insert Bill Clinton.

What's the last thing you did that made La Bandita really mad at you? How did you make amends?

Good luck TAC. stay safe and have fun!

This is actually one of the best qualities to look for in a friend as far as I'm concerned. I tend to be the friend who encourages people like you to say/do things for a little bit of shock value. I didn't get along well in catholic school, as you can imagine.

What was the stupidest thing you've done while under the influence? ;)

What was the last thing that made you: -laugh with abandon -cry like a baby -angry

And you get a modern era Cinderella who rides around in a BMW and has her pumpkin in a cup I insert 45 patio stones

I will not smoke today.