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No, but the thought crossed my mind of getting a tiny GTQ tat on the side of my middle finger on my right hand. Then I came to my senses.

Hey T, thank you for bringing this subject to the forum. I hope you're getting responses that are helping. I imagine your questions will help others along the way too. There is so much to say about all of this! I'll try to keep it short and share my experience. At 2 months I felt a bit like you. I briefly considered an antidepressant but really didn't want to go that route and felt more comfortable trying other avenues first. I'm at 3 months and things are better. Time behind me is a big one. Doing small things and setting a routine helped tons. First was the combo of getting out of bed, getting my coffee and log on to do my NOPE..no exception or excuses with this one. Other things....have breakfast, be religious with taking Vitamins, specifically a good Vit D, take a shower, take a walk outside...doesn't have to be long or cardio focused just get out in the fresh air and sun, finally plan out and then do a good deed for someone each week. For example, one friend lost her mom last week, another found out she has breast cancer....I made them some food and dropped it off. I walked a dog. Simple, brief and lifted everyone's spirt just a smidgeon. Something else that is going to help is more sunshine and warmer temps. I DO believe there is a physical aspect of depression to this all. I also think staying in our head and dwelling on it isn't helping us at all, (maybe I should say my head and doesn't help me). Do trust that it's temporary, that time is our friend and sometimes pushing to do small things makes a world of difference (like getting out of bed or a shower, sad but true). For what it's worth, I've never been like this either....but I've not been a non-smoker for 36 years either. Healing and learning new things can be hard but worth it. You asked what we thought of the suggestion of using an NRT in the mornings and all I can say is no way would I do it, even if my Dr suggested it, but that's kind of how I roll anyway...bit of defiance in me :). What you're doing is pretty remarkable so do try to keep that in the forefront of your thoughts. It WILL get better, promise you that.

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8 Months! You're well into your new way of life. Congrats Sandy and thank you for all your support.

Super glad you came back Laura! It's the best place to find ourselves.

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I don't have anything official to add but I relate to having weird things happening when I thought things would be getting better. I have read (not here in the QT Forum) about other people experiencing their bodies doing odd things when healing. It's good you have an appt to see your Dr.

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VERY Cool! Sounds ideal. I also want to say good for you on quitting ahead of time and allowing your quit to gain strength before moving. I know we must always be vigilant in our quit, but it sure does help to not be as raw or as vulnerable as we were 3 months ago. So pleased for you Evelyn. I always admire a swimmer..I'm like a brick in water and can barely do a sidestroke. But I do like to float on my back in the ocean.

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Moving? Did you get into that place you looked at a month or so ago and found pleasing? I must have missed your post saying a spot opened up for you. Really? Is it true?

The fantasies make it better than the reality. Crying is ok...you get to take gulps of air and be reminded how much your lungs are healing! And it brings you off the ledge.

Keep unwrapping. And for your friend? She's lying to herself...completely lying. Nothing nice about living on edge 24/7, triggers ALL the time, smelling horrible, body tissue decaying, etc etc etc.....she's lying.

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Congrats Colleen! How great that it is gone from your radar.

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I asked the same question! And was relieved to know it wasn't an exclusive club :). I wore the patch for my first 9/10 days, then decided to just get it over with per say and went cold turkey. Whatever works for you to achieve the goal of being a non-smoker.

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