Welcome to QuitTrain @mm34 So glad you found us. The first piece of advice that I will give you is to stop cutting back on smoking because it will not work. It will keep you in perpetual withdrawal and you will climb the walls. That is what I did with this quit, I tried to cut back and was down to two cigs a day, one in the morning and one in the evening after dinner. That was the worst mistake that I did because I was constantly craving a smoke and was climbing the walls. Please either go cold turkey or try the patch/gum and follow that program, but cutting down will not work. I have been there, done that! Yes, it's tough, it's very very tough, but definitely doable as millions of people have quit smoking and have stayed quit. What I did in the early days of my quit was to take cinnamon sticks and pretend they were cigarettes. I would suck in air and then pretend I was blowing smoke out of it. They really helped me, plus it tasted very good. If you don't like cinnamon, you can use cut up straws. Withdrawal doesn't last forever, I promise you that, but the faster you get rid of ALL the cigs, the better off you will be. The second piece of advice I am going to give you is to come on here every day, especially in the beginning months, and do the Daily Nope pledge. I still do it after 2 and a half years as it keeps me focused. Also, stay close to the forum because you will need the support. I truly believe the more support you have from the get go, the more you will succeed. There is even a fun game section to keep your mind off of smoking.
When you get the urge, drink a big glass of water, go for a walk, come on here, ANYTHING except smoking! You can do this!! Good luck and I hope to see you on here again soon!