Evelyn

SORRY to post again. For the last 3 hours I've been caught in relivings and flashbacks. I've tried an icepack beneath my feed. Can't reach ANYONE. The option of smoking starts to pop up. I'm desperate. I'm stuck behind my desk. Trying to survive. This is so hard, I'm putting myself with tape with tape around myself my desk chair. I'm so scared. Please Lord, I've cried out all afternoon. Let this stop. STOP! NOPE. NOT going to loose my quit now.

Or something how it's said it the song, a Christmas song I believe... Anyway NOPE. Taking it day by day, today kinda in a rouch path but I NOPE today!

Jup got through it! All clear!

Thanks everyone. Going to read in bed

No K9 anymore

Using patches now. So far no problemo but today I got pretty upset and I just need to sit this mental craving out. I hate those bitch's days! Going to watch Dr. Who on Netflix and will stay close. It's a N.O.P.E. for me but support from my QT friends is welcome. Got this far, no 'extra nicotine gum' when I crave a cig just distraction and no refreshing my patch; I stick with the surviving the mental craving as I will do when I'm without patch!

NOPE

Thanks everybody

Too bad it's stormy today, would like to go to a christian shop to buy me a present. We have a storm over here.

Thanks Action!

NOPE

Wrong post

YUP a ex-smoker. I was able to see you all post just couldn't log in. In the clinic, storm in a glass of water; I freaked out for nothing. But I choose NOT to smoke everday. The second day was hard when I saw this woman walking to the smokersroom everytime with one fag... one pack on the table I don't care but that one cigarette got my mind unsetttled. I walked to the trainstation (YES I was allowed to go out) but I only stared using more gum by the stress so I switched to patches and GUESS what??? I DO NOT refresh them every hour, no more patch addiction. Just a clean one after my morning shower. Quitting the gum resulting in seriuos bowel obstipation and you do not want to know what messures where taken before I was feeling relieved. But back to that woman and the smokers room: I said NOPE I WILL NOT SMOKE.

NOPE NOPE NOPE

I NOPE in these short days with the holidays coming up. So NOPE.

I do.... NOPE

NOPE

The GUINEA PIGS. Lol not ordinairy pigs!

By the way my neighbor invited me this afternoon but after I visited her yesterday I found it wise to avoid 'my smoking buddy-home' since yesterday it cracked me up, almost. I always used to run to her for a cigarette. So visiting her downstairs is very tricky. When we sat outside a month ago enjoying the sun, I had no trouble her smoking. And most of the time she respects my quit and I invite her upstairs.

True. I NEED to cut down nicotine gum. BUT if I go too fast I'll only bite myself in the ass. Yes I'm afraid to go without since everytime I quit nicotine I failed. NOT THIS TIME. But I'm cutting down, not quiting nicotine at once. It's complicated but there's too much mentally going on that risks I blow my quit if I just threw them outta window. I WILL cutt down. I WILL stay quit and continue my quit without nicotine. But when I'm closing in on that moment I might need to read some Joel's vids. As said earlier I ALWAYS failed whenever I quit nicotine replacement. So I need to plan this and be prepaired BEFORE I jump in deep waters. I will NOT ruin my quit by letting some rushing me into things I know that danger my quit FOR REAL. I WILL QUIT that damn nicotine. But PREPAIRED. And this time I will SUCCEED

Maybe not every approach is for every person the same

Me too. Already got a tree set up :D

NOPE

I'm okay :) NOPE

Yes. I'm trying to focus on something else.