Opah

You know I did not hack at all up in the high desert and very little this morning now that I'm back. I work just a rock throws from the Ontario Air Port how much crap do you think is in the air from all the Jets taking off and Landing which both are the highest fuel burning time of a flight? Maybe it is more Location than Smoking?

No smoking without Joe, not even a whiff except the mesquite in the BBQ, and Yes there were a couple of moments I romanced the cool crisp morning and while sighting my rifle but again they shu shued away easily enough. Goodness I love this scope, need to tune the Harmonics of my Barrel to the new ammo but otherwise it is soo sweat! A good weekend free of all hint of cigarettes is soo nice soo relaxing, I feel really good this morning

Really Not understanding where this post got off of the dealer Moteaf the op was writing about ? And Yes as Notsmokenjoe said we all have a right to our opinions and a right to disagree, so hey why sweat it Kev ? what did you say anyway but the truth, if you sell are you a dealer of that product ?

Yes to day I leave for my Refuge, Only minus one Joe, the only smoking presence will not be there ! Have enough to do to keep busy, have my new scope to sight in and Gary will be up so I have some non-smoking company. This should be a right nice weekend free of smoke, all smoke, fresh clean air, blue skies that hurt your eyes, good friend , good food, good times. Yes this should be a weekend to rejuvenate, refresh and relax, not sure if I can wait 2 more hours ?

They are a Nation of their Own ! Wonder if they sell them to their children ?

Guess I'll see how it goes for the next couple of weeks, My Doc appointment is at the end of the month.

I'm ok with it for the now, just flem clearing in the morning, its the wife right now that is concerned. guess it wouldn't hurt to get it checked out what is it you all are talking about a low radiation CT scan ? something like that. I know I can get a med order for one, I just have to pay the co pay.

Seems that this morning Hacking should be getting less and less, Not sure if it was still there after the 7 or 8 Months I was quit, But gave up my guit and started smoking cigars one here one there, and another then another. never got back to smoking regular or daily but It was too much and I was not in control. So here I am somewhere around a month quit and I still have the morning hack, I wish I could remember from the other quit, but I think even after months I still had it just a tamed down a lot. there are many 3 ,4 6, 8, month quits here so the question is do you still have that morning hack, that smokers cough ? Or did it go away ? and if it did about when did you really notice it?

OK got you, bottom line is no one can take your quit from you, you must give it away. stay strong stay NOPE

Yes indeed, sales type people are getting very aggressive, I had some young thing call me and start spuwing about some resort I told her no thank you and she just wouldn't stop ! I had to hang up on her ?

You know really in our lives do we have time to concern our selves with the assholes on this earth, I think not Smile flip them the Bird and be on my way.

OK I got it, they set the tone of the conversation. ass receives ass

The days of POP EM and DROP EM are long gone, sad to say, you can go to jail today for a misunderstood pat on the back and end up on the perv list to boot

You really would like to do something good, to get him, if you wouldn't go to Jail Like ? after he asked didn't you stop and restart, I would have like to un zip pull it out and say yes but pissing in public is far more exciting. Something like that

Total opposite for me, when I bought a pack of my Honey berry cigars I got boo hooed by 3 of the clerks I know Farley well, they even told me that I let them down. Damn shame what I did.

Strike up the Band for Orgasm rewards ! AH maybe that was the thing about have a smoke after sex, I never did ? why move away from a soft warm heart throbbing body to smoke ? never made sense to me, I was always working on seconds !

Sazerac, damn you make too much since ! I really didn't want to smell that stink over and over. OK so a new plan emerges ? A Rewarding Plan ? starting to feel like a ping pong ball, maybe I could also be over thinking this I'll start and stick with NOPE and throw in some rewards as I go

Sound like a plan to me Lin, thinking about a stinky old cigarette butt nasty smell that I can carry with me. Get a crave pop the top sniff and Gag, I agree with you I want the mere thought of smoking to make me gag ! Well how about this i'll get a sealable container something I can carry in my shirt pocket take some cotton balls and let them set in Joe's ash track over the weekend we are at the refuge and then put them into the container and anytime I start to romance the smoke I'll take a whiff and GAG. sounds good. Huston we have a Plan !

Thank you guys The Brave Heart Freedom isn't working for me now, because I am slowly acknowledging that there is no freedom from this, at least that I can associate with. A bluesy thing, but I know I failed due to been over confident after all those months, it s was the I.m free , I,m free, praise the Lord I'm free that I allowed my self to slip back into bondage. I most be smarter this time, I most be stronger this time, and I must maintain my commitment to NOPE, I must ! I Love you Lin not slapping down a Brave Heart, we all must have one to succeed here

KINDA been putting this off fo a little bit, but went to visit with one of my best buds and hunting partner Joe, Now Joe and his wife are smokers and have no plans on not being smokers, ( its their Life's) But both are very good friends. Was worried about being in that much of a smoking environment, now back in my last quit when I lost it Joe was one of the ones I was with so here is where my conviction comes in. and I did just fantastic, he asked I said no thank you he said great and the day went on just as it did before I lost my quit. I know it is poison, I know it if allowed will kill me, I know I Know I Know, why is my mind putting it in front of me as such a nice, soft, pleasant thing ? Surely my mind knows it is poison and refusing to portray it as such, so I still have much work to done on my mental aspect of smoking, AH yes you all have mentioned this before Romancing smoking I believe it was. so here comes some more work ! Reconditioning my thoughts and mind to see smoking as a very bad thing, not this morning with a cup of coffee great thing. I have jumped these hurtles before but now that I think of it I never got over how atracrive my mind portrayed and displayed smoking and that is where I failed. I claimed success far to early let my guards down and lost the war. Now it has been over a year and I have just come to understand this ? I guess the only good thing there is about this is I have shown it to my self, I cant blow it off as some over zealous non smoking advocates pushing their agendas on me. Have to do some work I'll be back

OK my friends time for me to go, you be happy to know you will have Opah Silence until Monday Morning at 6:30 am when I return to Partake of all of your wisdoms and knowledge. Later gators

Yep that picture was taken his first Day in Prison, My My what a difference a Day makes !

OK my Buddies and friends ! I was up and in the shower at 3am this morning, left the house at 4am and drove to the lab to get Blood drawn. I really like this lab jus for this reason it opens at 5am but lets you in to get the paper started at 4:45. So I was in at 445 and on my way to work by 5:10, on the clock at 520, Man I love not wasting any time. so in a couple of days we will see if the meds made a difference, and if I am going to continue them. smoking has taken a back seat to most of my life at the moment, not having serious craves or triggers, the worst is still driving but even it has diminished significantly. I think being preoccupied with me feeling better and more energetic I haven't left much time for the wants or craves. Yes I hear you ! "Don't get cocky locky" there will be days you are not busy and have excess time on your hands ! By the way who says Cocky Locky anyways ? I have heard it believe me it is not from me. oh well back to the thought Boredom, Boring are not in my vocabulary ! If my Father heard anyone of us say I bored there's nothing to do ! That was he's call to arms, there is always something to do he would say and sure enough we would be cleaning the garage or pick up dog poop or one of several unpleasant choirs. So I will find something to do, lately sleep has been the favorite, even My dynamo wife has been content laying with me earlier than normal. This weekend will be full of fun stuff, my little goat needs another thermostat, the one I just put in has failed? (Piss me off) Come Hell or High water I am getting that fill plug out of my Yukons transfer case. after that I am free to play.