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OK if I do pass thru it, it will be at 75 MPH with my doors locked ! thank you Getting anxious, still got to load up my little goat tonight, hoping it doesn't rain all over my stuff. going to be wet and cold enough hunting in the mornings and evenings, no need to have my stuff presoaked

so what ism up in Stockton Jim ?

loading up with nope, I will sound like a broken record NOPE, NOPE, NOPE until it stops asking

Thank you Lin, you are sooooo appreciated

a big OPAH NOPE today

I tell myself it is poison, its not a good thing, I would be better off poking myself in the eye. but this addiction is tricky sneaky, I so hate that I gave in to stupidity, but what is IS and the best that I can do is get back to where I was not make the same mistake and get this monkey off of my back forver !

More in land, Parkfield ? not much out there but land cows and Game ! the nearest anything is 30 / 40 miles, not a place to be low on gas !

Two things I missed Werthers and pumpkins seeds, Thank you guys. I did take Friday off but night driving really gets to my eyes (head lights) Better off after a good night sleep and with a good cup of coffee in hand, beside I need to pack tonight been slow on the draw this week, not sure if it is me or the quit be really procrastinating everything Even this Hunt ?

Damn Girl ! AAA ok I see you did not write this let me rephrase Damn Joel ! I am not sure I would have ever associated smoking as a friend, more of a need But if one was to embody smoking I think Joel has captured it (he or she) a relationship you wish had never started. Think I'll print thi and take it with me tomorrow, Thank you Julie for sharing it with us

Well I leave tomorrow to central California, it is a 4 plus hour drive. Taking a shit load of sun flower seeds with me, they help with the trigger craves, probably should take a bunch of munchies. Still kind of torn about when to leave, I could work 6 hours and leave about 11am and get there around 3 pm ish or just take the day off and get there in the morning 8 am ish. The less traffic is the better for me less frustration, less temptation, I have made notes so far for driving urges I can deep breath sing at the top of my lungs snack on something Use Jill's Famous air cig Make faces at the people I pass on the freeway Dodge the bullets of the people I made faces at that are now showing me why one should not make faces at strangers on the freeway That is about it ? did I forget any ? yes one more NOPE PEDGE before I go and make sure I do not have anything I could smoke, no taking with just incase, no stopping and buying I can't smoke what I don't have.

Jenks lake, Ca. its closed for the season and makes for a very nice quiet and tranquil afternoon. thr wife and I had a Picmic lonch there on Easter day. need to go back with a pole next time

Bottom line is the Government is more interested in the money it makes than the health of an addict. if they were serious instead of penalizing smokers they would incise them with incentives, such as very reasonable heath, auto home, insurance healthy living tax breaks. make things better for those that better them selves

Noon time NOPE

It is a shame and should be controlled or regulated, WHAT !!!! did that come out of MY mouth !!! Bottom line is that the marketing is set up to addict ! Nicotine vaps are much more that a cigarette the none or low nicotine vapes are much more costly, I know two people that are addicted to the nicotine one it took two years for him to stop the nicotine gum and the other is still vaping the high nicotine vape. When a product is sold in such a maner as to intentionally addict and hold hostage people, something most be done. just another example of how our government turns a blind eye to the peoples safety and health, for money.

This is where I go to take a walk

Still feeling a bit slow today, kinda like mooolasssess on a cold morning Do I look OK to you ?

OK a cup of Coffee and Beer nuts, should get me to break and something off of the roach coach getting sweet belly from the beer nuts

AWE I got it I did not have my morning cup of Java, That would put anyone into a funk. get this first cup down and all will be brighter Thank you Lin

I DO NOT SMOKE ANYMORE !

Yes sir another smoke free day AND A MAJOR VICTORY, A guy I work with still smokes and when I did fall off of the wagon I would have a smoke with him on the patio to discuss my day. Yesterday he was headed out to the Patio asked if I wanted to come and I told him I would Pass. YAAAAA I must admit for a spit second my addiction said yes, but I said no ! woke up in a funk this morning sleep to long, no breakfast had to run straight to work, have a hollow feeling in side. I hate eating off of the Roach coach but I really need to eat something. A couple more hours till then. Good thing, got the new frig in, running and making ICE Running behind on getting my hunting stuff together but I still have a couple of days Suppose to do our Taxes tonight and just don't feel like doing them Guess I feel better once I get something in my stomach

ORIGHTY another day done, short drive to Lowes and then home, need to hook up the ice maker on our new refrigerator, yep the old one died, bit the dust, took a long ride down a short road. then Taxes Thursday and Pig hunting Friday Saturday and Sunday. YESSSSSSSSS you all take care and keep being a friend for the Friendless

Nope today for me, and I love this get your day started video https://youtu.be/W7q1bHK8te0

Working forward, figure every day is not smoking is a major win. Driving is still the major trigger but is manageable. Strong with my two guiding thoughts Not One Puff Ever NOPE and you can not smoke what you don't have. so no beg, barrow, steal or buying of any smoking material's. I CAN DO THIS ! I WILL DO THIS ! I WILL BE BETTER FOR THIS ! OOOH HAPPY DAYS AHEAD ! Daily PEP Talk completed.

So WTF week, weirdness, fog, Emotional, couple days in and really haven't had much time to think about what week or even day I was in. I guess Busy is a good thing, Irritable yes been a little less tolerant than I normally am, Or it could be I'm just sick and tired of the crap ? Not going to look to much into this, not a biggy, going to be busy this week also won't be much time to think or want to smoke. triggers at work are still active just not strong, heading outside or towards the patio is a auto crave. just have to tell myself No thank you and it goes. or just now writing about it. OK back to it, need to ahead of what is mine to do and clear some time for Friday

YES IT WILL Thank you